Monday, August 31, 2015

First Love Second Chances






Book Series: Byrnehouse-Davies & Hamilton Saga
Publishing Date: 1995
Author: Anita Stansfield
Publisher: Covenant Communications, Inc.
Category: LDS Contemporaray Romance
Point of View: Third Person, limited, Emily and Michael
Chapter Count: 16
Page Count: 238

To my parents…Thank you for believing in me, and for your endless support. Like Nephi, I have been born of goodly parents.

Chapter 1- Picking up just a few days from where the last book left off, Emily is anxious to be reunited with her "fiancĂ©" (just thinking the word makes her shiver with pleasure) who was called back to Australia on business. 
Penny comes over to take the two babies for a walk. Emily enters her kitchen and gets the shock of her life to find a dozen roses and Michael Hamilton, in the flesh, surprising her with an early return. He got as far as L.A. before he realized he can't go back to his homeland without Emily and his new, instant, family.
Penny, who was in on Michael's surprise all along, admits she'll be sad to see Emily leave but is happy for her friend. Emily hopes nine-year-old Allison will feel the same after she and Michael break the news to her. Michael leaves to go check into a hotel for the night.
He's back early enough next morning to see Allison off to school. Michael and Emily impulsively take the two baby girls to University Mall for an outing including lunch at JB's.
Back at the house, Emily answers the door to greet a strange woman she's never met before. The woman is a less active Mormon and the mother of the young girl who was driving under the influence who caused the accident that killed Ryan Hall. The woman feels so terrible about her deceased daughter's poor choices, she tracked Emily down. Michael takes over the awkward conversation by graciously accepting the woman's apologies including the humble check she pushes on Emily to ease her conscience. They see her out and Michael tells Emily he'll be sending this woman a large amount of money, anonymously of course, because he's awesome and, besides, they can afford it.
Penny drops in again and the adults peruse photo albums while the babies play. 
Michael volunteers to prepare dinner except Emily's cupboards are bare. Exasperated by her frugalness, Michael leaves to do the shopping himself while Emily can only shake her head and wonder why she is so blessed. Michael is the perfect man.

Chapter 2- Allison gets home from school just in time to witness Michael's return with half the supermarket in tow to fill the depleted home. He bought everything they could possibly use including household and personal products plus enough food to last two years. Even Allison is impressed as she helps put everything away while Michael gets down to some serious Iron Chef cooking. Allison enters the kitchen offering to help. She and Michael have a nice chat. Allison goes to her room to rest as Emily enters. She and Michael make out in the kitchen. Michael murmurs how he can't wait to be married to Emily for time and all eternity. Emily bursts into tears. Michael is disappointed but accepts this unusual gospel principle forbidding women to practice polygamy in the eternities like a man. They decide to tell Allison about their engagement. She is reticent, complaining of an upset stomach.

Chapter 3- Penny's family, her husband Bret Millner and their five children, arrive as Michael's invited dinner guests. He serves homemade spaghetti sauce, garlic bread, salad and cheesecakes. Everything is delicious but Allison excuses herself to go lay down again. Her stomachache is worse. Penny and her brood help Michael clean up the kitchen. Then Michael volunteers to diaper and dress the two babies for bed while the other adults watch in amusement.
The company departs leaving Michael and Emily alone to say goodnight. Michael leaves and Emily checks on Allison who is whimpering in pain. Emily sleeps beside her until she is awakened by Allison's cry. Something is very wrong. Emily phones Michael who comes right over to drive them to the ER where Allison is diagnosed with appendicitis. She'll undergo surgery and spend the next few days recovering at the hospital. Emily is glad to have Michael to lean on as the bishop and his wife enter the waiting room. It won't take long now for news of Emily's engagement to spread thanks to Penny and the ward grapevine. 

Chapter 4- Michael informs the bishop he's a new convert and is planning on attending church this Sunday. Leaving Emily at the hospital to sit with Allison, Michael returns to the house to meet Lucinda Swann, the most eccentric member of Emily's ward who makes it her hobby to offer room and board to any foreign visitors in the neighborhood and Michael is her newest project. This solves the problem of Michael and Emily living together until married. He calls his mother in Australia bringing her up to date on everything. He has her blessing on their engagement and she is looking forward to welcoming the new family to their ranch in the outback.

Chapter 5- Sunday morning, Michael arrives to escort Emily and the two babies to church where he's asked to help bless the sacrament, his first time. He passes "ward inspection" with flying colors and Emily is grateful for his help taking baby Alexa so she can teach Relief Society. Ryan never did that. Emily has never enjoyed a more perfect block of meetings until the middle aged ward busybody makes a disparaging comment to Emily about landing such a wealthy catch, her poor hubby hardly cold in his grave. Emily is upset but Michael steps in to smooth things over with his cooking taking homemade brownies over to the home of the woman and her husband, explaining his relationship to Emily; effectively winning them over.

Chapter 6- Brother and Sister Swann welcome Michael that night to their house and show him to his room. Next day, Michael continues to prove himself "the perfect man" by surprising Emily and Allison at the hospital with a new Barbie and other convalescent items to entertain her while bedridden. Allison is very pleased. Michael next returns to the house, dismisses Penny, and takes over babysitting and housekeeping for the rest of the day: lunchtime, bath time, nap time, playtime. He does it all. Emily steps through the front door to find a spotless house and an exhausted Michael lying on the floor with the two girls crawling all over him. Next day is Emily's birthday. Unbeknownst to her, Michael hung a huge sign outside informing the whole neighborhood. More embarrassed than angry, Emily can't stay mad at Michael for long, especially when he's cooking all her favorite foods for dinner tonight. He's just too good to be true.
Weeks pass until one day passports arrive in the mail. It is also the same day Mom-in-law calls to ruin everything...

Chapter 7- Emily informs Mrs. Hall she is engaged to be married to that insolent foreigner who answered the phone and, yes, she is taking the grandchildren to Australia. He's rich so they'll be well provided for, not that Mom-in-law gives a rat's a**. 
Later that day, Allison is upset when she walks in on Michael and Emily sharing a passionate kiss in the kitchen. Both try not to let it bother them. 
Next day, Michael returns to the house after running an errand to find Emily in tears thanks to Mrs. Hall's latest phone call absolutely forbidding Emily to take her grandchildren out of the country. Mrs. Hall has no legal right of prevention of course but after Allison talked to her on the phone she is set on accepting the invitation to move to Idaho and live with grandma.

Chapter 8- Michael is summoned to Emily's in the middle of the night. The baby's earache has gotten worse. While Emily has dealt with this ailment before, she needs the moral support since Ryan always expected her to nurse the sick children; never offering to help. Michael steps up.
In the morning, after getting Allison off to school, Michael drives Emily and Alexa to the pediatrician. Back at the house, Michael notices Ryan's personal items are still scattered all over the house and bathroom. Emily whines, blaming her procrastination on her widowhood. Michael looses patience and YELLS at her, immediately regretting his words. 
Emily silently retreats to the kitchen to wash dishes in the sink. A tall glass accidentally breaks in her hand and Michael gets to play hero again, binding her wound, finding a sitter for the babies and Allison, dropping them off and driving her to the same doctor who examined Alexa earlier that day who also stitches up Emily's hand and writes her a prescription. (Wouldn't Emily have her own physician?)
Back at the house, Emily rests while Michael runs the necessary errands including Emily's request for a treat because he's the perfect man. 

Chapter 9- Learning of her mother's accident, Allison is panicking when Michael arrives to pick her and the babies up from the sitter's. He hugs her, reassuring, he's not going to let anything bad happen to any of them. Michael spends the night on the couch since everyone in the family is indisposed except him.
A few days pass and Allison grows increasingly insistent that while the rest of the family is packing to move to Australia, she's going to Idaho. Michael scores more points with Emily by attending a ward potluck social with them. Ryan never wanted to do that stuff. 
When they get home, Emily declares Michael was right to reprimand her, it's time to get over Ryan and move on. Michael agrees because when Emily dumped him ten years ago, he mourned for her while Ryan Hall ended up being a jerk who made Emily feel worthless but Michael is going to bring back the old vibrant Emily who believed in herself. Emily buries her face in his chest and sobs more of her grief out while Michael comforts her. They talk and realize Satan is working overtime to break them up but it's not going to work. They're on to him!
Emily will begin sorting Ryan's things today while Michael really needs to get back to work on his latest manuscript for his editor. Luckily Emily just happens to have Ryan's IBM word processor (such as they were in 1995!) for Michael to use in the master bedroom.
Later, Amee brings a doll to Emily to help dress but she directs him to "Daddy" which Amee does with nobody thinking twice about it. This completes Michael's induction into the family.

Chapter 10- One autumn night, Michael finishes typing out his next chapter. It is very late and he really needs to leave but the sexual tension between him and Emily is extra hot tonight. Somehow they manage to control themselves and Michael leaves just as Sister Swann phones for the second time to remind Michael of his curfew.
Next morning, Michael gives Allison a ride to school. Just before dropping her off, he asks her to really think, ponder and pray over all her reasons for moving to Idaho instead of staying with her family. They will respect whatever decision she makes. Allison agrees to Michael's request.
Next, Michael sends Emily to the Provo temple. She returns recharged and rejuvenated but when Allison returns from school, she and Emily begin a shouting match over her new desire to stay right here and not go anywhere since it means leaving familiar friends and places. Michael intervenes, standing up for Emily. Allison bursts into tears of remorse and Michael leaves them alone to talk.
One day in October, Michael finds Emily bringing in an armful of wood to build a fire in the chilly house and takes over the task. He's the hero of this story, remember.

Chapter 11- Still the same day, Allison leaves for school with no dramatics and nothing bad happens to anyone (for a change). Emily observes Michael outside, in his flannel shirt, splitting logs (like he's Chris Evans or Robert Downey Jr.) and nearly has an orgasm.
Michael spends the afternoon working on his manuscript and when Allison gets home Emily hears them both frolicking in the leaves and brings the two babies out to create a family memory. 
Later that day, their visas arrive in the mail and suddenly everyone's personal items are shipped off to Australia, the house is closed and everyone is saying a tearful goodbye to Penny before driving away. Even Allison is excited about the move.
It helps that Michael bought new toys and games and plenty of snacks to keep the children amused on the long journey. They fly from Salt Lake to Los Angeles where the girls change into pajamas before boarding the direct flight, nonstop to Sydney, where Michael leads them to the hanger housing private planes. He's a certified pilot and will personally fly them to his family ranch; an additional four hours in the air. Everyone is very weary of traveling and Allison is especially quiet as the reality of the enormous distance of this move becomes apparent.
Their new home is like something out of a fairy tale. A huge, old, family mansion with a personally decorated bedroom for each girl, servants to wait on them, a nanny for the children, lots of horses to ride, miles of open land to explore with Toyota Land Cruisers for modern convenience. 
They meet LeNay Hamilton, Michael's widowed mother, who welcomes them with open arms. His younger sister Katherine, her husband Robert and two children Stacy (just Allison's age) and Wade have gone into town but will be back soon to meet everyone.

Chapter 12- To Allison's dismay, there is no public school. All the children in the immediate family at the station have private tutors while the boys home has its own teacher. All socializing or shopping is done in town; miles away by car. To distract Allison, Michael takes her and Emily on a tour of the stables. He shows Allison how to ride by sitting behind her in the saddle; one strong arm secure around her waist, while he controls the horse with the other. Allison loves it.
While LeNay invites Allison to come help in the kitchen, Michael shows Emily a private room in the family cottage (with gables facing East) where his great grandfather lived with his family until the big house was built. The spirit of Elijah is strong in this room which has been left, undisturbed, for almost 100 years. Emily senses it too, there's temple work that needs to be done. Michael's colorful ancestors are waiting. Thank goodness he found the gospel. 
Back at the main house, Katherine makes a rude entrance, complaining about Mormons overrunning the place to her husband, unaware of the new arrivals. After the awkward tension is eased a bit by Michael and LeNay, the phone rings. It's Jenny, the smart, educated, and very single, LDS woman Michael wrote Emily about in the last book and almost got himself engaged to before the spirit stopped him and sent him back to Utah just in time to save Emily from a socially suffocating widowhood, not to mention a life of poverty.

Chapter 13- Michael's phone conversation with Jenny is awkward and tense as he gently breaks the news to her that he's off the market, engaged to be married to that old girlfriend he told her about, newly widowed and available. See you at the wedding, sucker! 
The next day is Allison's birthday. Allison and Stacy hit it off immediately after being introduced to each other and became instant BFFs. The girls are taken into town for shopping and lunch. Over cake and ice cream that evening, a stable hand interrupts the family celebration to inform Michael and Katherine her prize mare is having complications delivering her new foal. Michael rolls up his sleeves and delivers the foal which he presents to Allison as a family tradition. Allison couldn't be happier and names him "Ashley's Replacement" with dreams of racing and breeding horses like her new family.
Next morning, Emily finds herself at the breakfast table with LeNay and Katherine. She offers advice to Katherine who is struggling in her marriage to Robert whom she suspects is being unfaithful. Plans are also made for the upcoming wedding. LeNay shows Emily an ancient wedding gown great-grandma Alexa wore on her second wedding day over 100 years ago. She was married twice, you see, after her first husband was killed. Emily bursts into tears at the irony. The dress is in surprisingly good condition and just fits Emily's petite frame. Later, LeNay shows Emily Alexa's journals which Emily devours as Alexa wrote of her feelings: torn between two men, just like Emily.

Chapter 14- Emily's first Sunday in Australia is an eye-opening experience as the commute just to attend branch services (twenty minutes by plane, with an additional forty by car) takes a good part of the day. It will prove a challenge to stay active here.
Their first Monday, Michael conducts a family home evening lesson. LeNay and Stacy join them as two potential converts. Refreshments are enjoyed by all when the doorbell rings. It's Jenny, who did not attend church yesterday (for obvious reasons) but felt compelled to make the long drive out to Michael's to show she has no hard feelings.
The visit is friendly but awkward. After Jenny leaves, Emily bursts into tears of guilt, stealing Michael away, preventing him from creating his own eternal family. Now he's stuck playing second fiddle to Ryan. Michael admits it was a difficult choice but he's sticking to it. Never fear, his faith is strong and he is mighty. At least until the next book.
That night, Emily has an incredible dream. She runs to Michael's room to share the details but is stopped by the spirit. Their wedding is in two days. The anticipation is almost unbearable.
Michael and Allison have another nice chat in the stables next day. Allison concurs she loves her new life here in Australia and she's ready to start calling Michael "Dad" which is more than okay with the new step-father. Life couldn't get any better, especially when Bret and Penny arrive from the States as a surprise (arranged by Michael from the beginning) for Emily.

Chapter 15- The day of the wedding! Emily has been fighting a dark premonition (foreshadowing) that something bad is going to happen to Michael that will prevent them from being together. Penny finishes helping her into her dress and tells her she's just being silly. Pre-wedding jitters.
They are married in the upstairs hall with a string quartet to accompany Michael and Emily who walk slowly toward each other to meet in the center of the hall where vows and rings are exchanged. It's all very dreamlike for both of them.
Later, at the reception, everyone eats, drinks and dances the day away until Michael sweeps Emily upstairs to what is now their bedroom suite where, at long last, they can get down to some serious lovemaking.
They intended to leave the next day on a honeymoon trip but inclement weather postpones the trip until tomorrow. Meanwhile, Robert and Katherine are having their biggest fight ever. Suitcase in hand, Robert is about to walk out on his family when Emily intervenes. She gets the truth out of Robert who cries on her shoulder admitting he was unfaithful to Katherine and is terrified she'll never forgive him. Emily helps him see the light.
Stacy comes running in, crying, because her mom was so upset she mounted a horse and rode off into the hills where a severe storm is building. Against everyone's protests, Michael plays hero (again) and rides off on his own horse to find and rescue his sister before a search party can be organized. It seems Emily's premonition came true.

Chapter 16- Michael prays aloud as he rides through the moisture. Suddenly his horse goes down and he blacks out.
Back at the house, Emily and Penny pray for Michael and Katherine's safe return. The search party reports finding a dead horse with a body underneath, still unidentified. Emily nearly passes out. Penny leads everyone in prayer, even the nonmembers of the family kneel and hold hands. Allison sings I am a Child of God and a strong feeling of peace fills the room just as a shout is heard outside.
Michael did fall off his horse but he only hit his head. He's fine. Katherine's horse is the one that died, after she fell off in the same area, breaking her leg. Michael found her and they'll both be okay. Robert offers to drive Katherine to the doctor so now Michael and Emily can leave for their trip.
In the air, they both gush over how much in love they are and how great it is to be married.

Epilogue
Emily is happily settled in her new life as she drives back home after a long day making her visiting teaching appointments by car. She composes a short letter to Penny describing the differences between Utah vs Australian church duties while her perfect marriage more than makes up for the new challenges. Michael walks in, interrupting her writing, and they both agree life can only get better from here and nothing could ever happen that could possibly threaten their marriage. 
At least until the next book.

THE END  

Friday, August 14, 2015

First Love and Forever

First Love and Forever by Anita Stansfield. I really enjoyed this book ...


Book Series: Byrnehouse-Davies & Hamilton Saga
Publishing Date: 1994
Author: Anita Stansfield
Publisher: Covenant Communications, Inc.
Category: LDS Contemporaray Romance
Point of View: Third Person, limited, Emily and Michael
Chapter Count: 16
Page Count: 235

This book is dedicated to my Father in Heaven. It is He who gave me this gift and an endless string of miracles to make it possible to give to you, the reader

And to the memory of Ellen Strate Cox. Thank you for believing. You are a true friend-forever.

Chapter 1- Meet Emily Hall; a meek, introverted, Mormon housewife with wavy ash-blonde hair, blue eyes and petite frame. She is unhappy in her marriage to Ryan Hall who is always working. He enters but barely acknowledges her, a depressing factor that has crept into their nearly ten year marriage. Emily declares it's her turn to get out and leaves for University Mall which is located in Provo, Utah. 
Inside, she browses music stores, book stores (this mall has two and, yes, you are that old) and clothing boutiques until, following a prompting, she returns to the bookstore and learns her college sweetheart, the man she almost married, has realized his dream of becoming a famous, best-selling author and is coming soon for a book signing. Emily impulsively buys his latest hardback, Verity, (cost: $15.95) and leaves knowing she will be back.
Emily sits in the car. Hours pass as she recalls the first time she ever saw Jess Michael Hamilton from Queensland Australia at her BYU, Book of Mormon class at the beginning of fall semester.
Brown wavy hair, hazel eyes, six feet tall with a sexy Australian accent to rival Chris Hemsworth, Emily remembers her tingle of attraction hearing that voice in class commenting on The Psalm of Nephi. She speaks to him after class, he asks her out, which leads to seven months of serious dating and courtship. Everything falls into place. Except for one little, minor problem: Michael is not a member of the church and has no interest in joining. Yet, he shares the same standards and principles she does and they remain chaste even when he takes her to Australia to meet his independently wealthy family who are also not members of the church but good Christian people who use their money to help others. Michael can't understand why Emily Ladd won't accept him for who he is, without this religion issue always getting in the way.
Emily returns to Idaho for a quick visit with her own family, torn between Michael's recent marriage proposal and an old friend and return missionary, Ryan Hall, who also expresses interest in marrying Emily. Worthy priesthood holder who can take her to the temple trumps all of Michael's other good qualities. After much fasting, prayer and general agonizing, Emily marries Ryan and breaks Michael's heart. Now she is trapped in a loveless marriage with an inactive husband who, other than providing an income, neglects his family. Maybe refusing Michael all those years ago was a mistake...

Chapter 2- Emily and Ryan have three girls: Alexa, seven months, Amee, who will turn two in three months and nine-year old Allison who is sent off to school. 
Ryan brushes off Emily's suggestion they spend time together this weekend as a family, he's getting together with the guys to watch the game this Saturday, remember? He leaves for work and after the two babies have been put down for naps, Emily's best friend, next door neighbor and fellow Mormon housewife, Penny, lets herself in. She finds Emily in front of the open cedar chest, college memorabilia spread all over the living room floor, including a copy of Michael's very first publication, Crazy's Day, personally signed, "To my first love, forever." That was three years ago and Emily never even bothered to read the book. Penny is updated on yesterday's event and is appalled Emily is considering not going to the signing. She insists Emily go so she can reconnect with her old college boyfriend, put the past behind her once and for all. Penny is happy to babysit.
After praying and pondering, Emily wakes up Thursday morning, the day of the signing, and calls Penny. Emily's own parents passed away a few years ago, all siblings live too far away and Penny's children are all in school so she is happy to fill in as Emily's number one supporter.
Emily bathes and picks out a pink blouse, black skirt and classic black riding boots Michael bought her in Australia after teaching her to ride. Penny shoos her out the door, insisting Emily take as much time as she needs, all day if necessary.
At the mall, Emily spots Michael, in the flesh, signing books for his fans and bolts, overcome with nerves. After wandering around, she works up the courage to return and it takes three attempts to stay in the queue until she is the only remaining person. Without looking up, Michael takes her book, inquiring to whom she would like this dedicated? "To my first love, forever," Emily whispers. Dramatic beat as Michael's head shoots up and he's overjoyed to see Emily. 
Time stops as their eyes meet and he embraces her. More fans are now waiting so Michael makes Emily promise to meet him again so they can catch up. Emily suggests tomorrow, here at the mall, same time, same place. It's a date.

Chapter 3- Once again, Emily sits in the car for hours freaking out over the realization, not to mention the inappropriateness, that she is a married woman who just agreed to meet her ex-boyfriend behind her hubby's back (ashleymadison.com is still TEN YEARS away!). She opens her new book and reads Michael's latest inscription, "To my first love and my last..." relishing this feeling of being cherished because Ryan never does anything like this anymore. 
After running a few errands, Emily returns and reports to Penny who is ecstatic to learn Emily agreed to this meeting. She is especially happy for Emily that Michael appears to be unmarried and available. Now Emily can divorce Ryan and live happily ever after. She'll come over and babysit tomorrow and breezes out the door while Emily just stares, open-mouthed at her friend's blasé support of adultery.
Allison returns from school and Ryan comes home from work where, once again, the mail is greeted before the wife. He frowns at hot dogs for dinner and only listens with half an ear as Emily repeats a very watered down version of what she did today while Penny babysat. Ryan is more concerned that Emily wrote a check to pay for her frivolous purchase, if Emily is going to be a high-maintenance wife she should get a job, than the fact that she ran into her ex at the mall. Ryan's remark about Emily getting a job cuts her deeply.
That night, after the house is settled down and kids are asleep, Ryan tries to snuggle in bed while Emily is reading her book. He reads the romantic inscription, grunts, and rolls over to go to sleep. Feeling very depressed, Emily turns out the light and gets down on her knees for a lengthy silent prayer.
Next morning is chaos with little time to shower and get herself ready, Emily throws on the same outfit, different blouse, from yesterday and is hurried out the door by Penny who, again, insists Emily take as much time as she needs.
Michael is also running late when Emily, out of breath, arrives at the mall bookstore. They begin walking and talking. No he's not married and not in a relationship at the moment. Emily Ladd is just as beautiful as she was ten years ago and Michael has questions he wants to ask her.

Chapter 4- Emily shows off wallets of her girls which she always carries in her purse. She mentions Penny, but falters when Michael brings up her relationship with her husband. The subject is changed to Michael's carefree, bachelor life. He envies her life, knowing a man at his age should be married with kids and settled down by now but since he's never met anyone to equal Emily, he stays busy traveling and running his family's ranch in the outback. Michael insists on taking Emily out to lunch (this mall has a JB's restaurant which is no longer there) and while they wait for their food, Michael asks Emily, point-blank, if she's happy? To his surprise, Emily bursts into tears and tells him everything. Michael is furious to learn that Ryan is a jerk who doesn't appreciate what a jewel he caught for a wife. If she'd married HIM...Emily sobs and sobs, beating herself up. Michael asks for the check and they leave their untouched meal. Outside, Michael desperately wants to take Emily in his arms but, as another man's wife, it is forbidden. So this is temple marriage. Was it worth it? For the first time, Emily turns off the tears and looks Michael straight in the eye. However dysfunctional, God approves of her marriage; it's helped her to grow. She's grateful to be a slave and a doormat, submitting herself cheerfully to such an emotionally abusive and unavailable man because she knows she'll be blessed for it (Kate Kelly begs to differ). Michael can only admire her modesty and strong, albeit sweet, spirit. What a woman!

Chapter 5- Michael asks for her address. Emily rips a deposit slip from the back of her checkbook to write on. Not wanting to part on such a depressing note, Michael suggests they wander around the mall. The next few hours fly by as they talk and laugh, window shopping and eating junk food. Michael wipes a smear of chocolate off Emily's mouth igniting strong feelings of their old attraction to each other.
Narration shifts to Michael's POV and he decides to try an experiment determining just how controlling her husband is and how starved she is for attention. Emily admires a pretty sweater but insists she doesn't really need (or deserve) it so Michael buys it for her. Miffed at his generosity, Emily walks away feeling like a charity case. Ryan provides, they have sufficient for their needs, he just won't let her spend any of his hard earned on herself. A sacrifice she's willing to make. Michael tells her she's worth more than all the million-dollar ranches in the world. Emily nearly cries at the compliment.
Michael and Emily manage to share a nice dinner together (which Michael also pays for) without any drama; making up for the disaster of lunch. Outside, Michael turns to Emily with a rather rash, preposterous, idea: Emily should bring the girls and run away with him, he'll take care of them all. Ryan'll get the idea in a week or two. But Emily wouldn't dream of breaking sacred temple covenants. Not to mention shaming the family with a divorce.  Michael urges her to fast and pray about it. He'll return from his USA book tour in a few weeks for her answer.
He walks her to her car and inquires about her hobby of painting with oils which Emily confesses she regrets setting aside for the demands of family life. Since he took a cab to get to the mall this morning, Emily offers to drive him to his hotel. Michael comments on the fictional Australian rock band they both loved in college which Emily is currently streaming listening to on the car cassette player. Overwhelmed by the disillusionment of her failed marriage, the irony of what might have been, Emily shuts off the music. Michael confesses he still loves her, respects her, admires her courage to stay with Ryan and thanks her for today. She returns the sentiment, wishing they could be more intimate with their affections.

Chapter 6- It is after midnight when Emily finally returns home. She made a detour to sit in front of the Provo temple in her car and cry. Ryan turns as she climbs into bed, demanding to know where she's been. (Oh, you noticed?) Emily makes up an excuse about running into an old friend and losing track of time. Ryan just grunts and rolls back over.
Next day is Saturday. Emily feeds and dresses her girls and sends them off to play while Ryan sleeps late, as he usually does on weekends. Emily decides to grow a pair forgo fixing a hot breakfast for this man, like she always does, and enjoy some "me" time for a change. She dismisses Ryan's whining and complaining and he leaves in a huff without any breakfast, slamming the front door behind him.
Determined not to let her husband's attitude bother her, Emily spends her day intermittently playing with her girls and reading Michael's first book, the one she should've read three years ago. Penny comes over and Emily proudly shows her the shopping bag with the sweater. She dumps it out and a rain of cash follows, the change from the $50 bill Michael used. Now she can buy groceries for her family today. A miracle. Emily breaks down crying, spilling everything to her best friend who thinks running away with Michael is a great idea, consequences of temple divorce notwithstanding.
That night, Ryan still hasn't returned from his activity with the guys. Not even a phone call. It is after midnight when his car pulls in and Emily is already in bed. He gives no explanation and Emily never asks. He wants to have sex but she turns her back on him and weeps silent tears.
Over the next few days, Emily tests Ryan by slacking off her usual household responsibilities, like not fixing breakfast, getting out her easel and paint supplies instead, leaving no time to prepare dinner. The house is a mess but Emily is realizing taking time for herself is a good thing.
Saturday arrives and she and Ryan engage in the biggest, loudest fight they've ever had in their marriage until Emily is so beaten down emotionally she finally suggests Ryan just divorce her or maybe he'll wake up one morning to find her gone, then where would he be? Expecting no answer, Emily goes straight to Penny's house to use her phone and make an appointment with her bishop tomorrow. She begins her THIRD fast since Michael asked her to run away with him. Divorce has never looked so good but until she gets a confirmation from the Lord, Emily's not going anywhere.
Emily confesses everything to her bishop who gives some excellent counsel and advice. Continue to do nice things for herself, care for her home and family's basic needs and to stop being so hard on herself so Ryan will wake up and realize what a choice eternal companion he's got. She requests a blessing and he gives her one. Emily leaves realizing the "Michael issue" was never acknowledged. Back at home, their 1pm church block start time allows Emily to shut herself in the bedroom for a lengthy prayer and time to pen a long letter of gentle rejection to Michael. She will stay with Ryan but changes are going to be made.

Chapter 7- The scene is a Las Vegas hotel room where Michael tosses and turns, unable to sleep. He recalls his first meeting with Emily and the incredible experience he had dating, courting and proposing marriage to her. Emily Ladd was, and always will be, his soul mate. Despite Emily's insistence that his non-membership status didn't matter to her, deep down, he knew, after returning from their trip to Australia, that Emily was going to reject him for a Mormon RM who could take her to the temple.
Sure enough, Emily showed up at his apartment, after her visit to Idaho, to announce, after much fasting and prayer she received her answer that marrying Ryan Hall was the right choice for her. I'm so sorry, Michael, but I'm off to plan my wedding now. Have a great life, bye!
For nearly a year, Michael spiraled down into deep, almost suicidal, depression. He returned home, unannounced, to the family ranch. His mother and younger sister demanding to know what happened. Why did he quit school? Where's Emily? Channeling Scarlett O'Hara, Michael hurls a vase and curses all Mormons and their temple marriage. Just thinking about another man sharing Emily's first time in bed is enough to make him wish he was a drinking and drug abusing man, but he's not. He can't even find himself a woman to hook up with to make Emily jealous because of his personal beliefs about pre-marital sex. He's the perfect Golden Investigator.
Spring arrives and Michael returns to America and BYU to finish his education. Ten years later, he's a successful writer, back in Provo for the first time since graduation as part of his publicity tour. All these years, the only thing that kept him going, was knowing Emily was happy in her Mormon marriage. Having Emily appear, like a vision, back in his life, was nothing short of a miracle. Until he learned the truth. Now his promotional tour is finished, he should give her a call. Maybe she's already made her decision.

Chapter 8- Emily answers the phone. Michael will be in Salt Lake on Monday. Aware of Ryan's presence in the room, Emily can't give Michael any hint as to what her answer will be but he's welcome to come by the house that morning. She hangs up and admits to Ryan that was her old college boyfriend on the phone but since Ryan doesn't ask for any details, she puts off telling him she's been seriously considering leaving him for another man.
Monday morning, Ryan leaves for work, oblivious to everything. Penny comes over to gossip and ends up being the one who answers the door to see Mr. Adorable holding a dozen red roses for Emily.
It doesn't take long for Michael to realize he's being rejected, again. Emily hands him the letter. (somebody should tell her about the social faux pas of breaking up by text) His suspicions are confirmed yet Emily is the one who is already crying. Michael rants and raves over her Mormon God who would play him like a fool. He NEVER got over her. He's still in love with her, doesn't that count for anything?
Emily realizes they need to clear the air on this issue about temple marriage. She gently suggests maybe this means it's time Michael create his LDS Singles account. Get over her, find someone else to go out with.
Michael responds by planting a great, big, passionate, kiss on her. Emily kisses him back before she sobs in the middle of it but refuses to apologize. It is her gift to him. The phone rings. It's Ryan who followed the strongest prompting he ever received in his life to call home, NOW. Emily reassures him everything is okay and, yes, they will definitely have a long talk when he gets home. She hangs up and goes back to making out with Michael. Just kidding. They share a platonic hug and apologize to each other.

Chapter 9- Penny enters the room to announce Ryan is home! Michael is taken aback, seeing Ryan Hall, in person; a handsome alpha-male with a commanding presence. No wonder Emily couldn't resist him.
Michael is very gallant, telling Ryan most of the story: he ran into Emily and asked her if she was happy. She said, no, and it's all your fault, (you a-hole!) because your wife is the most beautiful woman God ever created, yet she's chosen to stay faithful to her covenants so mind you treat her well from now on because I was going to be her knight in shining armor and carry her off into the sunset. Ryan is incredulous. Emily was really going to leave me? But...WHY? Emily tells him they'll talk later.
Emily and Michael say goodbye in front of Ryan. Emily promises to write and walks Michael out to his rental car where he kisses her hand and she kisses his cheek.
 "Wow, who needs daytime TV?" Penny quips from her spot on the sofa. She makes a graceful exit so Emily and Ryan can have their first heart-to-heart in years. Ryan is a shaken man. He had no idea, until the spirit practically screamed at him to take an early lunch break and surprise Emily at home, that his marriage was in trouble; that his wife was once in love with another man.
Narration jumps to Michael's POV as he drives, aimlessly, around Provo until he passes the temple, pulls into the parking lot, succumbing to the bitterness. Three hours pass while he watches Mormons, dressed in their Sunday best, entering and exiting the sacred building. He gets out and walks around but when he returns to his car, it won't start. He enters the temple lobby to use the phone where a kindly temple worker greets him. None of the numbers he tries works. Still raw with the hurt of rejection, he goes back to his car which, almost miraculously, starts and Michael drives away, wondering if he's going crazy.

Chapter 10- Spring has sprung in Provo and life is improving for Emily who now takes time every day to paint. She openly wears the sweater Michael bought her which Ryan asks after. Emily frankly tells him where she got it. Ryan can only stare blankly at her unable to fathom what she sees in Michael Hamilton? "He makes me feel my worth," she says. Instead of getting defensive, Ryan asks Emily for deeper insight and she is happy to tell him the story of how she and Michael first met and how in love they were. Ryan admits he may have been wrong to ignore her all these years and the very next Sunday, he attends church for the first time in years. Emily almost weeps for joy.
Michael writes and Emily pens a long letter back sharing all the good news about these positive changes in her marriage: Ryan is communicating so much better, letting her have more free time, he took her out on their first romantic date, just the two of them, to Burger King! (how pathetic)
Yet, old habits are hard to break and Ryan regresses to his old selfish ways one evening in June as he's balancing the checkbook after dinner, unable to believe it costs this much to keep a family fed and sheltered. This starts an argument over past issues. Ryan takes another cheap shot at Emily who rebukes him, reminding him of her worth, she cooked his favorite meal tonight, and threatens to call Michael to come take her away, then where would Ryan be? He is speechless. Score one for Emily! Ryan is silent the rest of the evening.
Next day, Ryan comes home, thoughtful and full of plans to spend more time together as a family. He even stopped by the mall today to buy Emily a present, an Australian t-shirt as a "truce offering." Emily is thrilled and hugs him while a humble Ryan admits maybe it's time he made some changes like getting marriage counseling, renewing his recommend so he can attend the temple with her, planning a family trip later this summer. Emily's miracle has occurred. Her life is rich and full.
Emily and Ryan make love that night for the first time in ages. For Emily, this is like a second honeymoon. She's giggly and blushing at the breakfast table the next morning. She suggests an outing this weekend to celebrate Amee's birthday and Ryan agrees, except they'll have to do it tonight because tomorrow is Saturday and he's committed to an Elder's quorum project. He calls Emily on his lunch break, while Penny is over visiting, just to say he loves her, something he hasn't done since the first year of their marriage. Penny is happy for her friend. She will watch Alexa tonight so the rest of them can enjoy their after-dinner outing to get ice cream.
But Ryan never comes home that night.
The phone rings. Ryan Hall was involved in a fatal car accident-DUI-the other driver died on impact. We learn Ryan is 33 and when Emily arrives at the hospital, she witnesses a scene straight out of the TV show, ER, with all the chaos as Ryan's body is wheeled past her into the operating room; medical team fighting to keep him alive. A doctor appears to regretfully inform Emily that Ryan didn't make it, sorry.
The bishop and his wife enter and Emily collapses into their arms. She's barely aware of her friends making arrangements for Ryan's body, somebody driving her home and Penny tucking her into bed. Penny is there when she wakes up and resumes crying. Ryan's family has been notified and the Relief Society is taking care of everything. Allison enters the bedroom and Penny leaves mother and daughter to cry in each other's arms.

Chapter 11- True to Utah Mormon culture, the entire neighborhood ward rallies to help the newest widow and her three children with Penny at the center of it all, directing everything, because she's awesome.
After the funeral, Allison leaves with Ryan's mother for a visit to Idaho. Emily found peace and closure at the funeral but the grief is still fresh. Allison is also taking it hard and Emily hopes a visit with Ryan's side of the family will be a good experience for her daughter but she misses her company. Ryan's things are still scattered around, as if he never left. The house feels so empty. Emily sniffs Ryan's aftershave and the fragrance stays with her the rest of the day, a powerful reminder of her husband. She wears nothing but that Australian t-shirt now in remembrance of him and to help her fight this growing urge to contact Michael and inform him of this life-changing event. Unfortunately, Michael's latest letter contains great news, he met someone!
Emily turns to the growing pile of unopened bills which Ryan had always managed. Without his income, how are they going to survive? And how in the world did Ryan manage to rack up such massive credit card debt? Emily gets her answer when the doorbell rings. A polished, professional-looking woman she's never met, dressed to the nines, holding a box containing Ryan's personal belongings from his desk at work (we are never told what Ryan did for a living) and his last paycheck is standing on the threshold. Emily invites her in.
The woman brings the sympathies and condolences from everyone at the office who regarded Ryan Hall as their "unofficial workplace counselor" always happy to stay after hours talking to all the attractive, single, women about their personal problems and taking them out to lunch. Emily wonders which Ryan Hall she's talking about, but the woman is insistent. Everyone loved Ryan, in fact, the very day he was killed he had stayed late to talk to her about a personal problem.
The woman leaves and the realization sets in. Emily once asked Ryan to show her just where they stood financially but he refused to let her help manage the checkbook, what would an ignorant housewife know of such things? Now she understands. Ryan was hiding something from her. All that credit card debt accumulated from taking all his female colleagues out to lunch while she stayed at home, eating leftovers. Without even opening the box, Emily throws it against the wall and Penny enters to help her pick up the pieces of her broken heart. Penny also is quick to justify Emily's own unfaithfulness going out to lunch with Michael, not the same thing and maybe it's time she informed Michael of her new marital status but Emily can't, it's too late. Michael's already in a relationship.

Chapter 12- Emily refuses to open and read any more of Michael's letters. When a small parchment envelope arrives, Emily is so sure it's a wedding announcement she stuffs it in the same place as all the other ten unopened letters.
Now that so many weeks have passed since the funeral, real life is settling back into the Hall household. Allison starts a new school year but worries she's too poor now to be considered "cool" by her friends. She is withdrawn and depressed. Emily shares her financial concerns with Penny who can't do much except offer free babysitting if Emily needs to go flip burgers to keep the wolf away. Emily jokes her power might get shut off before she gets the chance. Ryan's mother calls to inform Emily her dearly departed husband never bothered to include his own wife on the mortgage papers. Mom-in-law cosigned instead which means she is now the rightful owner of the house and will graciously let Emily and her girls live there if Emily starts paying rent. Emily reports all of this to Penny.
While the two women are talking, Amee falls and hits her head. Penny drives them to the ER. Amee is fine but her cut needs stitches. Add one more bill to the growing pile. Emily runs some errands, including the bank to withdraw more precious cash from her dwindling savings account. To her surprise, a $1000 deposit was just made by a mysterious benefactor (see Chapter 5).
Next morning, Emily gets Allison off to school, puts on her freshly washed but fading, t-shirt and skips her morning shower because her two babies are extra fussy this morning and the house is a mess.
The doorbell rings while Emily is on the phone with a lawyer who can't do much to help the legal situation over the mortgage but never mind that right now because Michael Hamilton is standing on her front doorstep.

Chapter 13- He's just as handsome and rugged as when she last saw him. Wordlessly she motions him inside, finishes the call and begins picking up clutter to avoid talking to him. Michael asks after the shirt, he's glad to see she's still alive, he'd like to take her and her husband out to dinner tonight if that's possible.
Um, no it's not. Ryan's dead. In shock, Michael continues to follow Emily around the house as she explains how she's drowning in debt and about to lose her house. He makes her back up and give him all the details of how Ryan died. Emily puts her girls down for their naps then retreats to the kitchen to wash dishes while Michael follows, demanding to know why she didn't tell him. He loves her!
Emily starts to cry, again, but this time Michael can take her in his arms and comfort her. Emily suddenly declares she needs to shower. Michael offers to go pick up lunch and Subway is waiting when she gets out. They bless the food and are in the middle of eating when Penny calls inquiring after the strange car parked in Emily's driveway. Feeling the return of her old spunk, Emily gives a playful answer.

Chapter 14- Michael can't believe it's been three months since the accident and Emily never bothered to contact him. Her life is obviously falling apart but now he can do something. He's not wearing a wedding ring but Emily is still weary of accepting any financial help from him. Remembering that little envelope she never even bothered to open, she keeps quiet and never brings up the subject.
Michael suggests they all go shopping as Allison has been pestering Emily about buying the perfect birthday present for an upcoming party of the year for the most popular girl in class.
The little blended family has a great time at K-Mart where everyone, except Emily, is treated to new clothes and goodies. Because Michael is taking her out tonight, Emily flatly refuses to let Michael buy her anything.
On the date, Emily is sullen, quiet and snappish (because she's an idiot) still believing Michael is already committed to another woman and they are just wasting their time trying to rekindle the old flame; shielding herself behind her grief for Ryan as her excuse. She's a 33 year old widow who can't let go of the past.

Chapter 15- Michael plays "Same Old Lang Syne" by Dan Fogelberg (1980) on the car stereo for Emily but that only makes the tension worse and she shuts it off with an angry sob. This date is over. Michael takes her home, wondering maybe he should just back off and give her time.
Next morning, Michael goes over all the bills with Emily. He leaves to pay the ones he can until more money can be wired from Australia-the debts owing are that high. Emily admits she was about to break down and contact him for money; else start looking for a job.
The next day, Michael stops by to inform Emily he's taken care of everything, including the first month's rent to mom-in-law and a big, fat, deposit in her checking account to tide her over until she needs more. Since Emily has made it pretty clear she's long been desiring his absence, he's booking a flight back to Australia as soon as he can.
Penny comes over and chews Emily out for never clearing up Michael's current relationship status and letting him get away so easily. Emily realizes her friend is right. She still has feelings for Michael, it's only fair she demand he fast and pray about leaving his new girlfriend this time.
Emily finds Michael at his hotel and they return to the house where Penny has already put the babies down for their naps so they can talk. Michael makes Emily retrieve his unopened letters. Feeling very sheepish, Emily opens the parchment envelope and reads aloud the Hamilton family is proud to announce the centennial anniversary of their business. The LDS woman Michael met was a sweet spirit but there was no chemistry between them. Emily has always been his true love. Emily bursts into tears and falls into Michael's waiting arms. They share a passionate kiss.

Chapter 16- Penny is the world's greatest babysitter. Once again, she will handle everything at the house while Michael and Emily go out on another dinner date tonight.
They eat at a nice restaurant downtown near the Provo tabernacle (soon to be Provo City Center Temple in 2016) where they spent many happy dates together while attending BYU. During the meal, Michael proposes (for the third time) to Emily who, at long last, can readily and easily accept.
Then Michael announces to Emily the REAL reason he came to see her was to let her and Ryan know he'd finally joined the church. He was baptized last month and is ready to start a whole new life as husband, stepfather and patriarch in a Mormon home as a worthy priesthood holder.
Emily couldn't be happier. They kiss and it's a happy
THE END




Introduction and Complete Book List

Welcome!

You are here because you love classic, LDS romance novels. And when it came to cranking out the best selling genre at Deseret Book, no one could touch Anita Stansfield. From 1994 (First Love and Forever) to 2000 (Towers of Brierley) she was the "Jane Austin" of LDS Romance; these "Golden Years" marked some of her best and finest work.
This quote says it best.

Then, something happened. With the publication of Where the Heart Leads (2001) her writing took a sharp turn from the easy, approachable, storytelling form we all loved, to a didactic, condescending, overly-moralizing style and theme.

With their strong inclination to teach and instruct, rambling character dialogue and thinly developed plots, her books were no longer fun to read. This lower-quality writing would (so far) continue for the remainder of her career.

Anita Stansfield has also written under the pseudonym Elizabeth D. Michaels, publishing her work with White Star Press. She's also started writing again for Covenant. Her latest LDS novels, Legally and Lawfully Yours (2015)Now and Always Yours (2016)The Heir of Brownlie Manor(2016)Color of Love (2017), Lily of the Manor (2017) and Love & Loss at Whitmore Manor(2017) The Angel of Grey Garden (2019) are all quick and easy reads.

You can follow her latest news on her own blog which includes a very helpful Book List.

In keeping with the spirit of my other LDS book blog: The Work and the Glory Series: a book by book synopsis, I intend to take every Anita  Stansfield book published between 1994 and 2013 (all 57 of em!) do a chapter by chapter summary of each and list them here in a Complete Book List.
This project will probably take a few years, so bear with me.
Just click on each title (as they become available) to access and happy reading!

Other Links:
Bestselling Author on Overcoming Low Self-Esteem Deseret News, 2011
Stansfield introduced in this 1996 Deseret News article
Covenant Communications rejects Stansfield's Newest 2004 Novel
A Reader Chimes In
Stansfield Mentioned in LDS Fiction article

ANITA STANSFIELD: THE COMPLETE BOOK LIST

Title                                                                                              Publication Date

1. First Love and Forever                                                               1994

2. First Love, Second Chances                                                        1995

3. Now & Forever                                                                           1996
4. By Love and Grace                                                                      1996
5. A Promise of Forever                                                                  1996

6. Return to Love                                                                             1997
7. Home for Christmas                                                                    1997

8. To Love Again                                                                             1998
9. When Forever Comes                                                                  1998
10. A Christmas Melody                                                                  1998

11. For Love Alone                                                                          1999
12. The Gable Faces East                                                               1999
13. The Three Gifts of Christmas                                                     1999

14. Gables Against the Sky                                                              2000
15. Towers of Brierley                                                                     2000
16. A Star in Winter                                                                         2000

17. Where the Heart Leads                                                              2001
18. When Hearts Meet                                                                     2001

19. Someone to Hold                                                                        2002
20. Gables of Legacy Vol I:  The Guardian                                     2002
21. Gables of Legacy Vol II: A Guiding Star                                   2002

22. Gables of Legacy Vol III: The Silver Linings                            2003
23. Gables of Legacy Vol IV: The Eternal Bond                             2003
24. Gables of Legacy Vol V:  The Miracle                                      2003

25. The Captain of Her Heart                                                          2004
26. Captive Hearts                                                                           2004
27. Hearts Crossed                                                                           2004

28. Gables of Legacy Vol VI: Full Circle                                       2005
29. Timeless Waltz                                                                           2005

30. A Time to Dance                                                                        2006
31. Dancing in the Light                                                                  2006
32. A Dance to Remember                                                              2006

33. In Search of Heaven                                                                  2007
34. A Quiet Promise                                                                        2007
35. At Heaven's Door                                                                      2007

36. Promise of Zion                                                                         2008