A Guiding Star

Book Series: Gables of Legacy   (Byrnehouse-Davies & Hamilton)  

Publishing Date: 2002

Author: Anita Stansfield

Publisher: Covenant Communications, Inc.

Category: LDS Contemporary Romance
Point of View: Third Person Limited- Tamra
Chapter Count: 9
Page Count: 149

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Prologue

This is nothing but a recap of Vol. 1 The Guardian-Michael and Emily Hamilton invited Tamra Banks to come live with them at their Australian home where she fell in love with their only son, Jess, who attempted suicide which Tamra prevented. Months passed. At first, Jess seemed to be recovering well but as he refused to take their relationship to the next level, Tamra finally told him she was leaving. Jess left instead. Tamra soon followed. Jess found himself and returned home a new man, ready to progress with his life and his relationship with Tamra. Discovering she'd left, he quickly tracked her down on the same plane about to take off for the States where he gave Tamra the shock of her life...

Chapter 1 

After twelve hours in the air, the plane is about to land at LAX airport, Los Angeles, CA where they will change planes for Minnesota. Tamra wakes up, remembers she has Jess back in her life and smiles as he kisses her. She can't wait to show him around her hometown of Minneapolis, Minnesota.

Jess pays for two separate motel rooms and they check in to rest. We are reminded that Tamra is tall with long red hair. One of the things Jess loves about her is her conservative, wholesome appearance: except for a touch of lipstick, Tamra wears no makeup and is modest in her dress. While Jess is six feet tall, he doesn't mind when Tamra wears high heels. With his blue-green eyes, longish dark wavy hair, loaded with money and total commitment to her, Tamra knows she's found quite a catch.

Tamra admits she's apprehensive about contacting her mother. She's glad she has Jess to hold her hand. After breakfast, they decide to kill some time by shopping at Target for the winter clothes they forgot to pack. Jess throws in extra items like junk food and even a Lego set declaring he needs something to play with which is kinda cute.

Next, Jess insists they stop at a respectable jewelers so he can purchase an official engagement ring (Don't worry, he can afford it!) for Tamra. She's a little mad, at first, until she sees the perfect ring-tasteful, elegant and not the least bit flamboyant. Jess tells her an "eight cow wife" deserves an "eight cow ring." Because Tamra never took seminary in high school, having converted to the church later in life, the Johnny Lingo reference flies completely over her head but Jess is happy to explain.

At last, they are ready to enter the seedy bar owned by Tamra's mom. Because it is mid-afternoon, Tamra knows this is the best time to visit because there will be no customers. They go in and make themselves known. Tamra's mother is smoking, doing the daily crossword, while her older brother, Mel, is every bit the proverbial bartender, polishing shot glasses. 

When they realize this red-headed woman is their sister and daughter, Tamra's mom, Myrna, just smirks "Hope you didn't come here asking for money!" and takes another drag on her cigarette. Her brother is more open, offering them drinks on the house. Jess orders two ginger ales ignoring the sarcastic remark about Mormons and their non-alcoholic habits.

Chapter 2

Myrna, (what a name!) is cordial but it's obvious she was completely unprepared for her estranged daughter to walk back into her life like this and with a MAN to boot! She listens to Tamra's story of what she's been doing all these years and all she accomplished. Learning Jess is disgustingly rich, Myrna admits maybe her daughter hasn't been wasting her time all these years after all, much to Tamra's disgust as she points out there's a lot more to men than the pathetic examples her mother entertained: relationships are more than just superficial looks or money and perhaps it's time they were leaving.

No handshakes or hugs. Awkward.  Tamra and Jess exit the building wondering if this visit accomplished anything. They get dinner and return to their rooms for some much needed sleep. Tamra's big emotional meltdown over seeing her abusive mother can wait until tomorrow where Tamra cries for a long time in Jess' arms which lasts many pages as they re-hash the issues.

They order pizza and dance to music on Tamra's laptop. Jess tells her he spoke to his parents in Australia earlier today and took the liberty of setting their wedding date for after New Years at the Sydney temple. That way all his family and extended family can come out both for the holiday and their big event. Tamra agrees with Emily and Michael-it's a brilliant plan.

Chapter 3

After breakfast at a favorite local spot, Tamra and Jess get in their rental car so Tamra can take him on a special "lake and river" drive. Jess suggests while Tamra is here, she should keep going and try and contact her biological father.

At first, Tamra hates the idea. Myrna could never stop talking about what a horrible jerk her father was and since Tamra only saw him a grand total of two times growing up, she never had any choice but to believe all the awful things her mother said about him. Why open more old wounds?

They go to Walker Art Museum to think things over, then get take out to eat in their room, ending their day with a late swim in the motel's indoor pool (Um, I doubt they remembered to pack bathing suits. Did they go skinny dipping? *snort*).

Myrna is her usual pessimistic self again when they show up at the bar at the same time the following day where Myrna reluctantly gives them the information they need to locate that good-for-nothing Brady Banks. He's working in St. Paul and it turns out he's hardly a loser.

Tamra's father is now head foreman for a large, prestigious, construction company. At the site, someone summons Brady, a distinguished looking man with reddish hair, who is amazed to see his little Tamra Sue, all grown up and engaged to be married. He engulfs her in a big hug, shakes Jess' hand and insists they meet him at a nice restaurant for dinner so they can catch up.

There's a woman at the table when they arrive. Brady has been happily remarried nine years to Claudia who had children from a previous marriage. Once his divorce and custody rights were finalized, Brady spent several years drinking and letting his life go down the toilet until one day, he woke up and decided to make some major life changes. It was at an AA meeting he met Claudia and they just hit if off. Her teenage children accepted him and he stepped into his new role of being a husband and father to his new family.

The meal over, Brady asks if they'd like to follow them to meet his mother who is living in a care center. Tamra starts to cry. She has a grandmother! She has a family!

Chapter 4

At the care center, Grandma Banks' eyes light up when her son introduces her to Tamra and Jess. She suffered a stroke and can't move or speak but, sitting in her wheelchair, her eyes indicate she can understand everything they're saying to her. Tamra falls in love with her immediately.

Last, they follow Brady and Claudia's car back to their house where Tamra is moved seeing framed photographs of herself and Mel as young children prominently displayed on an end table by the sofa.

Her father makes a long speech about how he fought her mother for some kind of visitation rights since Myrna insisted on full custody. The legal fees and lawyer bills were what really drove him back to the bottle. He tried, he really did, but Myrna was so nasty he finally conceded and went crawling back to his mother's basement where he lived for several years, mooching off her, until she forced him to get up, get a life, a job and go to AA. He obeyed his mother and ended up with this fairy tale happy ending; a shiny, new life.
Which never included her. Tamra points out. Why?!
Jess takes Tamra's hand as she starts sobbing. Brady looks very uncomfortable as he learns his little Tamra Sue did not grow up in a loving, secure environment thanks to that witch he married. He'd hoped, by giving into Myrna's selfish custody battle, his ex-wife would change into a nice mom. He'd convinced himself his children's lives were better without him in it. He's heartbroken now to learn Tamra was so miserable growing up, not to mention the sexual abuse she suffered from all of Myrna's live-in boyfriends.
Tamra tells him not to think about it. It's in the past. She's ready to put it behind her. And they really must be going now.
Jess and Tamra talk for awhile back in the motel room before retiring to their own beds. They call her father the next morning, intending to apologize for the awkward conversation but Brady and Claudia graciously invite them to breakfast instead. (Today is Saturday.) They return to the house where Tamra apologizes for yesterday's emotion, she's feeling much better now and, once she put herself in Brady's shoes, has a better understanding of the decisions he made.
With Christmas just around the corner, the four adults come up with a lovely idea to make up for all the missed holidays-they will have their own Christmas celebration while Tamra and Jess are in town. Claudia loves to decorate early anyway. They agree Monday will be "Christmas Eve" and Tuesday will be Christmas. They'll trim the tree, bake cookies, exchange gifts and eat a big Christmas dinner. All burst into laughter in anticipation of their fun plans.

Chapter 5

The conversation continues: Jess and Tamra express their regret to Brady and Claudia why they can't come over early and spend the day with them because tomorrow is Sunday and they were planning on attending church. So far, religion hasn't been a main topic of conversation. Tamra's dad and stepmom are good people but organized religion just hasn't been a big part of their life. Jess and Tamra say goodbye promising to come over for Sunday lunch tomorrow afternoon.
Now, Jess and Tamra have some serious shopping to do and how lucky for them they just happen to be in the city that's home to the biggest shopping center in the country, The Mall of America. It's so big, it has an amusement park inside. Jess and Tamra browse many stores, ride the roller coaster and browse some more but Tamra is stumped as to what to buy her new family. After a few helpful suggestions from Jess, they purchase a koala bear (Australia, get it?) new journals, and stationary as a reminder that while email is nice, there's nothing like getting a real, old-fashioned snail mail letter. For Grandma, Tamra picks out a crystal heart to hang in a sunny window to brighten up a room, like in Pollyanna. They'll print off all the family history charts Tamra spent the last few years putting together on her laptop and get them professionally bound-one copy for Brady and Claudia, another for Grandma. They'll love it!
They've also been invited to an LDS family's home for dinner tonight, they supported Tamra on her mission and when she called to let them know she was in town, they insisted she come over.
After church the next day, Jess and Tamra spend a delightful evening helping the Banks decorate for Christmas. They all agree the star on top of the Christmas tree symbolizes a guiding light through a world of darkness. They bake lots of Christmas goodies (that braided bread with cherry filling sounds good!) and have a wonderful time visiting.
It occurs to Tamra the next day, "Christmas Eve," they need to go back to the mall to buy one last gift. She noticed yesterday, her father and Claudia don't have a nativity set and what better way to share their Christian beliefs in a non-offensive way by presenting them with such a gift? (Good thing they have the money as any decent set will cost at least $200.) They have it gift wrapped and, along with all the other gifts, now wrapped, drive directly to the Banks' residence.
Claudia invited her now grown children and their families over. Jess and Tamra don't mind this at all. Everyone gets along splendidly. After eating a big, delicious dinner, they play games and eat more of the goodies baked yesterday.
It is snowing on "Christmas morning" but this isn't Utah snow so Jess can't build a snowman. They drive over to the house for the gift exchange, instead, where Jess and Tamra receive matching Minnesota sweatshirts, a gift card to a nice restaurant in the city and tickets to the symphony tomorrow evening before they fly out.
Brady and Claudia love their gifts and are touched at the beautiful nativity. They are also impressed by the genealogy books. Tamra shows them lines going all the way back to the early 1400's and they explain their Mormon beliefs of temple work for the dead and eternal families.
They all visit Grandma in the care center. Her long, warm glance at Tamra makes it obvious she loves her two gifts. Everyone gets a little weepy.
The adults return to the house for more games and refreshments. All agree this has been a wonderful opportunity to spend quality time together as a family. Brady and Claudia are also pleased to announce that, after talking it over, decided they can afford to take time off, using money they had set aside, on a trip to Australia for the wedding.

 Chapter 6

After tearful goodbyes, it is especially hard for Tamra to say farewell to Grandma as she suspects it's the last time she'll see her alive. Jess and Tamra return to their motel room where Tamra impulsively decides they need to make one last trip to the store before they leave town. They go back to the copy center, then to Target, wrap the gifts in Christmas paper and get in the car.
At Myrna's bar, mid-afternoon, they find Tamra's mom and Mel in their usual places. Mel is surprised and pleased to open a Kingdom Lego set complete with knights and a fire breathing dragon. Tamra remembered Mel always asking for Legos during Christmas when they were growing up but never getting any. Tamra always wanted an Easy Bake Oven! (Remember this, because it's important later.) Myrna is puzzled over the family history charts, offended Tamra would go out of her way to buy them gifts they don't really need. She stops chain smoking long enough to suggest, with cold indifference, they should go now.
Hurt, Tamra is understandably quiet during the drive back to the motel where she demands the keys, gets back in the car and drives off alone. She's just not in the mood to talk to Jess right now. Wandering around the city, Tamra finally ends up at the care center where Brady finds her. He tells his daughter happiness is always within her grasp, all she has to do is reach out and take it. Tamra presses her face to her father's shoulder and sobs.
Jess and Tamra fly out the next day, arriving in Salt Lake City because Tamra's never been here while Jess served his mission here, but first, they need to drive down to Provo where Jess has several boxes stored in the garage of his ex-girlfriend/fiancée's parents' house. They aren't here (mission) but Heather, the ex-girlfriend, is! She's happily married and visibly pregnant with short blonde hair and wearing lots of makeup and jewelry. She is pleased to meet Tamra while Jess is clearly uncomfortable, especially when Heather asks about the suicide attempt-she admits she called the hospital and got all the details by claiming to be one of his sisters. Relieved to know she wasn't the cause, leaves them to collect the boxes in the garage. Jess cannot get away fast enough.

Chapter 7

It's too early to visit any friends or family, since nobody's home-school/work-so Jess drives to the office of Sean O'Hara, family counselor and psychiatrist. It's really good to see him again (he's one of my favorite recurring characters). Sean is very happy to see Jess doing so much better, that his phone call therapy worked and that Jess is engaged to be married. They must all go out to dinner, soon.
Back in the car, Jess notices Tamra is troubled but she won't tell him what's really bothering her, not that she doesn't have a long list of things to be stressing out over already. Tamra admits she's struggling with unkind feelings toward her mother, repressed anger resurfacing, old wounds opened after their visits which did not lead to any reconciliation between them.
They stay with Allison in her Provo home. Her husband and children are excited to have company. Then, out of nowhere, a fever knocks Tamra out (a relapse of what she caught on her mission?) and she is bedridden for over a week, delirious, dreaming strange dreams of being back on the family ranch in Australia wearing Victorian clothing and chatting with ancestor Jess while Alexa rides around the race track.

Chapter 8

When Tamra wakes up, Jess informs her it's almost Thanksgiving and they will be spending it here at Allison's who absolutely insists they stay. Sean comes over to visit. Tamra doesn't appreciate being patronized until Jess explains he was concerned by Tamra's outbursts over her repressed feelings and thought she should talk to a professional. Sean tells Tamra his own story, very similar to hers and Jess' how he was able to forgive both himself and his father who kicked him out after he joined the church.
Tamra feels well enough a few days later to go outside and build a snowman with Jess who acts just like a little boy which makes her laugh. Allison takes them to her in-laws home where they have the opportunity to take a real sleigh ride pulled by real horses and jingle bells.
Next stop is Northern California where Jess' other sister, Alexa, meets them in Sacramento and drives them to her home where they stay and enjoy another nice visit with her husband and children. Micheal phones during this time especially to talk to Tamra. Jess told him of her struggles and he has some personal wisdom to share from his own grandfather, Michael Hamilton, who overcame horrible childhood abuse to become the great man everyone admired. He relates the advice the original Michael gave him-that dysfunctional cycles in families can end, if one learns the true meaning of forgiveness. Tamra knows she can rise above her own abuse too. She pens a quick letter to her mother, letting her know she's forgiven her for everything and mails it before they board the plane overseas.

Chapter 9

Back in Australia, Tamra never thought to ask Jess how they would get home from the airport and laughs in delight when Jess informs her he's been a certified pilot for years, he just never needed to use it until now. 
Tamra's car is still parked at Aunt Rhea's who will be happy to drive it to Queensland for the wedding next month. This is all taken care of over the phone. When they reach the station and the family mansion, Evelyn is very happy to see them both, so are Michael and Emily. The wedding plans come together very quickly. Tamra enjoys Christmas, especially the tradition of taking a horse drawn wagon filled with gifts over to the boys' home.
But the very best present Tamra receives arrives in the mail from her mother, Myrna. After double checking it for bomb threats, (kidding!) Tamra is moved to tears when she opens an Easy Bake Oven along with a note. Myrna regrets her behavior during their visit, was glad to get her letter of forgiveness and hopes they might be friends from now on.
It's another Festivus miracle! And another happy

THE END 

The Guardian

Book Series: Gables of Legacy   (Byrnehouse-Davies & Hamilton)  

Publishing Date: 2002

Author: Anita Stansfield

Publisher: Covenant Communications, Inc.

Category: LDS Contemporary Romance
Point of View: Third Person- Tamra and Jess
Chapter Count: 19
Page Count: 324

To my son, Jake…For the gift of laughter you’ve given me. For your strong spirit and your “warrior heart.” The world is within your reach, and it’s a far better place for having you in it.

Jake is her second oldest, after John.

Chapter 1

There's a lot of info-dumping in these first 21 pages, so bear with me!

Sister missionary, Tamra Banks, serving in the Philippines is sick! She's 22 years old. The last thing she remembers is some life-threatening, mosquito-born illness knocking her flat on her back, delirious with fever. She is in a crude hospital. Her long red hair is matted and tangled, her tall frame stuffed into a too small bed, which a strange woman is sitting next to, holding her hand.

Readers of past books by this author will be very pleased to see Emily Hamilton again. She is serving a mission here in this country with her husband, Michael. They are watching over Tamra while her companion has already recovered and is back to laboring in the field. Remember, LDS missionaries are not allowed to be alone at any time, so, Sister Banks is stuck listening to Emily who gives her a rundown (for the reader's benefit) of her family.

All seven of Emily's children are grown and all but two are married. We already know what happened to Allison.

Emily's youngest daughter, Emma, is living with Allison in Utah because Emma had a strong impression to go to Utah and finish high school there. 

Alexa and Amee are also married with kids and living in the States and Australia, respectively. Jess is a return missionary who served in Salt Lake, now attending BYU, but not living with any of his sisters. Like Emma, he is currently single. 

James served a mission to Spain, came home, got married and had a baby girl who was just six-months old when Michael and Emily left to serve their mission. 

Tamra points out Emily only named SIX children, what happened to number seven? Emily sadly admits Emma's twin brother, Tyson, died shortly after he was born (see Now & Forever) and she hasn't been able to have any more children since. Tamra comments on Sister Hamilton's accent. Emily smiles. She's American born but married an Australian so that's where they call home. At the very mention of Australia, Tamra chokes up but passes out before she can explain to Sister Hamilton the significance of the country.

Tamra wakes feeling better. Sister Hamilton is still there and now it's Tamra's turn for more plot exposition:

Tamra was born in Minneapolis to a single mom who gave birth to an older brother before she came along. Growing up, Tamra was exposed to many live-in boyfriends. Some married her mom and stuck around for a few years before divorcing so mom could move on; none of these relationships produced additional children.  Mom ran a seedy bar and she made Tamra and her brother help. Everyone smoke and drank and bed hopped all the time, not a very healthy environment for a growing girl. When Tamra joined the church in high school and declared she was going to serve a mission, her mom told her not to come back. So, when Tamra is released, she'll be homeless with no place to go.

Sister Hamilton immediately invites her to the Hamilton family station, a kind of horse ranch where they'll put her to work helping the family business with a legacy of breeding fine race horses for over one hundred years. They also run a home for wayward boys. There's plenty of room and, Emily assures Tamra, she wouldn't be the first "lost soul" they've taken in (who later became part of the family). She gives Tamra their phone number. Tamra thanks her and, before we know it, Tamra is all better and it's time to check out. She's assigned a new companion and says goodbye to this amazing senior couple.
Tamra just happens to have a favorite nonmember aunt from Minneapolis who married an Australian and moved away while she was in high school. This aunt assured Tamra she is always welcome to come live with her in Sydney after she finishes her Mormon mission.
Tamra decides she'll take Aunt Rhea up on her offer, first, before imposing on the Hamiltons. After she's released, that's exactly what Tamra does.
Tamra finds a job in Sydney, learns to navigate the roads and attends her local singles ward. She tries not to let the smoking, drinking and swearing in the home of her aunt and uncle bother her too much. They are good people who respect her values and make her feel welcome. Tamra reads her scriptures, says her prayers, attends the temple regularly and gets involved in family history work.
Apparently, singles wards in Sydney are overflowing with temple worthy, priesthood holding men desperate to marry and settle down, because Tamra gets an insane amount of dating opportunities! She wonders if something's wrong with her, because she feels absolutely nothing for any of these fine men constantly pestering her to go out with them.
Eighteen months later, Tamra is growing restless. She's seriously dating a young man named Jason in her ward but the idea of temple marriage to him leaves her cold. Her job as a receptionist pays the bills but it's not a career. She feels like it's time to move on. But where? Then she remembers Michael and Emily Hamilton and their open invitation to come move in with them any time.
Tamra picks up the phone and makes the call. An older woman, the head housekeeper, answers. Michael and Emily aren't here at the moment, off serving another mission, but she is delighted to extend the open invitation on Michael and Emily's behalf. They won't mind at all.
Her aunt is sad to see her go but gives her blessing (the uncle died a few pages ago, we hardly knew him, therefore we hardly missed him!). Jason is disappointed Tamra won't accept his marriage proposal but there's plenty of fish. Her job has no problem with her resignation.
Very soon, Tamra's small car is packed up and she's off to Queensland in the hot, summer heat knowing with all her heart and soul she's doing the right thing! The Hamilton legacy is beckoning...

Chapter 2

Sadie is the sweet, older woman Tamra talked to on the phone and she's the one who answers the door of the large, very old, mansion with all the gables. There's a two year old girl here as well, Evelyn. Tamra wonders who she belongs to.
While she was driving up the lane, marveling at the beauty of the grounds, a strong feeling hit her, like a Hamilton ancestor was calling to her from the other side of the veil, welcoming her. The sensation occurs again as she's shown to her room and left to settle in. Tamra can tell this house contains a lot of memories. If these walls could talk...
Downstairs, Tamra is chatting with Sadie in the kitchen when a strange man enters. He has dark, wavy hair, worn long to his collar, hazel-blue eyes and is so similar to Michael Hamilton with his handsome appearance that Tamra is struck dumb.
Sadie introduces the man as Jess who is NOT pleased to meet another "lost soul." In a gruff, accented voice, he asks if there's anything to eat, makes himself a sandwich and takes it back to his room.
Sadie explains Jess just arrived yesterday. Completely unexpected as he's supposed to be in Utah going to school. Something is very wrong but Jess won't tell her what happened.
At dinner, Jess, still moody and sullen joins them at the table and tells them what happened. His girlfriend back in Provo, the one everyone was expecting him to marry, dumped him for another temple marriage proposal. Sadie and Tamra express their sympathies.
That night, Tamra takes a long, relaxing bath, brushes out her hair, writes in her journal and reads from the Book of Mormon before retiring to bed, completely at peace with the world. She sighs thinking of Jess and how attractive he is. She falls asleep, dreaming of a woman in white, (a Hamilton family ancestor?) leading her through strange rooms and hallways with no explanation.
Next day, Tamra finds the family library and, most important, the old leather-bound journals belonging to one Alexandra Byrnehouse-Davies. Jess finds her engrossed in reading. Tamra isn't aware of him leaning over her shoulder until he startles her, his head close enough to hers he can smell her hair. Unnerved both at his presence and the unexpected compliment on her hair, Tamra excuses herself and nearly runs out of the room.
Jess can't sleep that night. Why is this woman here? He just got dumped by the love of his life and he's not in the mood to risk his heart again with the lovely Tamra Banks.

Chapter 3

Jess is more civil at the breakfast table. He needs someone to drive him into town today. Tamra remembers she needs to pick up some things too that she forgot to pack. Jess is welcome to ride with her.
At the pharmacy, Jess gets a box of sleeping pills (this is important later) while Tamra buys the personal items she needs. At a shoe store, Jess purchases a new pair of riding boots, (in his haste to leave, he left his favorite pair back in Provo). Seeing Tamra admiring a ladies pair, learning she's done some riding herself, he buys them for her. She's reluctant in her thanks and the ride home is mostly silent. Jess has a pretty big chip on his shoulder and Tamra can't figure out why.
They go their separate ways back at the house. Late in the afternoon, Tamra is helping Sadie by taking a pile of seasonal items downstairs to the old cellar for storage. Sadie is very grateful as she's getting too old to be taking those steep stairs where Tamra discovers more journals belonging to Alexa. With all the dust, these volumes have most likely never been read by anyone in the family.
Tamra opens the first book and begins reading the story of The Gable Faces East. She's intrigued but she doesn't have time for this right now. She puts the journal back, deciding she'll return and finish the story later.
Jess takes her out riding, using the same (romantic) surefire method for any first time female rider who may be a little nervous about riding a horse: mount behind her, hold her safe and secure around the waist with one hand, the reins with the other until she gets the hang of it. They ride to a spectacular overlook and enjoy each other's company very much.
Later that evening, Tamra broaches the subject of Evelyn's parents. Overhearing, Jess enters and angrily explains-Evelyn's parents aren't here because they were killed in a car accident and he was the driver. A truck attempting to pass another car was coming right towards them in the night, Jess swerved to get out of the way. The truck hit the passenger side, killing everyone in the car. Except Jess. Jess was in a coma for seventeen weeks and a long recovery. Evelyn's parents just happened to be his younger brother James and his wife along with his very best friend from childhood, Byron. All were in the car. All three died. Jess lived and he'll never understand why. Then his girlfriend/fiancée decided to call off their engagement. Not a huge surprise as both were already struggling in their commitment to each other. Jess has been spiraling down into depression ever since.
Tamra wants to cry at this sad story.

Chapter 4

Tamra reads more of Alexa's journals. The connection is fascinating as it quickly becomes obvious stubborn, moody men who can't commit to the woman they love without a lot of drama, runs in this family.
The next day is Saturday. Tamra finds the perfect place for a dance aerobic workout in the upstairs hall, a large room with a great stereo and sound system which Jess' sisters created when they lived here. Dressed in her becoming workout clothes, she inserts her favorite CD and is moving to the beat, unaware Jess has been watching her until he comes up behind her and initiates the Samba. He took ballroom dance at BYU and he's good! Tamra experiences a silent thrill at this common interest. When the dance is over, he excuses himself while it takes several minutes for Tamra to calm her beating heart.
Tamra also expressed an interest in seeing the boys' home. Jess gives her a tour but he's back to his moody, sullen behavior again. Tamra can't understand why he isn't more proud of what his family does for this community. Jess takes her up to the gabled attic where Tamra can feel the presence of something in this room. To her amazement, Jess doesn't scoff but agrees. There are certain places all over the estate, he says, where he has felt the strong presence of his ancestors. In fact, he'll show her his favorite spot right now, if she'd like.
The carriage house is very old with equally ancient vehicles in the back, behind the more modern day cars and off-road vehicles. Jess enjoys sitting in one of these old, open top carriages and just meditating. Tamra can feel it too. Someone from the other side is trying to tell her something. But what?

Chapter 5

Jess has one more "haunt" to show her. Readers of past books about this family will recognize the old attic room above the cottage accessible only by a separate outside staircase with a gable that faces East. Jess tells her nothing in this room has been disturbed since 1879. Tamra is nearly knocked over by it, there's so much history in this room! She can feel it!
Next day, Tamra attends church with Sadie and Evelyn. Jess stays home.
Over the next few days, Tamra can tell Jess is purposely avoiding her.
The next time they do meet is in the stables where Jess impulsively kisses her. Tamra is startled at the intense feelings erupting inside of her. She's never felt this way before, about anyone! Jess shocks her even more when he confesses he's falling in love with her.
Tamra wakes up real fast at that, making a short speech how Jess can't possibly know if he loves her when they've known each other such a short time. She's not about to be anybody's rebound relationship. Offended, Jess turns and walks out.
Later that evening, Tamra just happens to run into Jess in the kitchen where, once again, he's raiding the fridge for another late-night snack. Sadie enters and reminds Jess his parents are due home from their mission in two days. Jess snarks a reply, obviously not looking forward to explaining his presence here when he's supposed to be at BYU.
One hour later, Tamra feels a prompting to go to Jess, but his bedroom door is shut. He's probably asleep. They can talk tomorrow. The spirit repeats the prompting, Open the door! What Tamra finds is a person's worst nightmare-an open and empty box of sleeping pills and a passed out body. Jess didn't take the entire package of 35 only the last 25. He's still semi-conscious, mumbling for everyone to just go away and leave him alone.
Tamra dials the Australian version of 911, three zeros. They send an emergency helicopter out to take him away to the hospital where Jess gets his stomach pumped. Tamra drove as fast as she could to the hospital so she's sitting beside Jess, holding his hand, when he comes to. (She had to correct the doctor about not being his wife.) Jess groggily asks what happened. Tamra reminds him what he tried to do. In shame and remorse, Jess turns his head into the pillow. He begs Tamra to never leave him. Tamra cries with him.

Chapter 6

The female doctor talks to Jess, trying to ascertain his motive for suicide. Jess gives her the barest details: car accident killed his brother, he was the driver and only survivor, girlfriend left him, all his fault, can't face his parents. The doctor sympathizes. Tamra is there holding his hand. This visiting hour block is almost over, she doesn't want to leave but promises Jess she'll be here tomorrow.
Back at the house, Sadie weeps. She's so grateful Tamra has been here to take the lead in this family crisis because she is lost.
Next day, at the hospital, Jess has been admitted to the psychiatric ward. He is more fully alert when Tamra comes to visit (after being searched thoroughly for any dangerous objects-anything containing strings or wire, pointy things). Jess tells her he is more than ready to be discharged. He HATES it here. He wants to go home. (Sorry Jess, but when you attempt to take your own life, they put you on suicide watch for three days. And yes, it does suck because you're in a lock-down ward and have no freedom to leave. Any clothing with strings, under wire bras and shoes with laces are locked away for your protection and someone checks on you every fifteen minutes-even if you're in the shower.) He feels like he's been incarcerated. And he really hates these group therapy sessions everyone has to attend where they talk about their feelings (and drug addictions).
Tamra is disgusted at his attitude. Everyone here is trying to help him. If he won't accept that, she's leaving right now and he can just stay here and rot. She gets up and leaves, running into the doctor again who agrees Jess is not the easiest person to talk to but he'll be okay, as soon as he gets in touch with his feelings.
Tamra sits in her car and cries. She drives around for a while before deciding she needs to return, sit down with Jess and they need to define their relationship.
Jess, of course, doesn't want to have this conversation right now. Maybe he is crazy.

Chapter 7

Everyone is convinced Tamra was sent to their home exclusively to save Jess' life. Even Michael and Emily, home at last, after learning what happened, break down sobbing, then turn and throw their arms around Tamra in gratitude for obeying that prompting. Their mission to Africa went very well, by the way.
All three go visit Jess in the hospital where all three adamantly declare how much they love him, how much he means to them. Just stay alive, Jess!
Jess growls in response. He's a crazy person. He took 25 sleeping pills, therefore he is beyond help (25 pills is nothing, Jess. I know someone who took 180 pills and lived to tell about it!) and they should all just go away and leave him here to rot.
The doctor, who has been observing this conversation, encourages his family to keep telling Jess how important he is to them. Michael recounts Emily's miscarriage, shortly after he and his little brother were born. Jess realizes his problems are nothing compared to a woman giving birth. There's nothing more important in life than living for your posterity. Jess declares he's ready to face life again. He wants to go home.

Chapter 8

Tamra suffers guilt for the cruel and heartless words she said to Jess about not understanding love and rushing in too fast-which drove him to take pills. Michael and Emily reassure her she's very wrong. She didn't make him take those pills.
While they're talking, Jess is discharged and they all drive home together in the same car where Sadie is waiting in the kitchen with a late night feast so they can celebrate.
The next day, Tamra runs into Jess in the kitchen fixing himself a sandwich. They decide to share lunch outside on the veranda where they discuss their feeling of mutual love and attraction for each other. He is better able to explain how he knows, in his heart, that he loves her (and probably wants to spend the rest of his life with her).

Chapter 9

Returning from their walk after lunch, they find Michael entertaining Evelyn in a game of tag around the lawn giving Tamra and Emily a chance to talk, just the two of them. Jess goes inside.
Tamra gets teary when Emily just happens to mention the close connection she's often felt to great-great grandma Alexa. She seems to be everyone's guardian angel.
Jess is a bit nervous learning his sisters are flying in from all over, both to welcome their parents back from their mission and to see him. They don't know about the suicide attempt but Jess knows they're going to sit down as a family and talk about it. He helps make the calls because his sisters have been very worried about him, taking off like that without letting anyone know. All are very relieved to hear he's safe and sound at home.
After hanging up, Jess admits he's glad he stayed alive so he could see his favorite sisters again. He's actually looking forward to this visit.

Chapter 10

Emily and Tamra work in the kitchen together and chat some more. Car accidents seem to be this family's lot in life: Emily's first hubby Ryan was taken, Michael's spectacular accident from Now & Forever and now this latest one that drove poor Jess to attempt suicide. Once again, Emily is so grateful Tamra's here. Plus there's another adult to help ready the house for the two big gatherings-one for all their friends and ward family to welcome Michael and Emily home from their mission and the family reunion. The girls are also bringing the youngest grandkids not old enough to be in school but too young to be left home with their dads who work so they can be stay at home moms. Emily is especially looking forward to meeting Amee's newest grandbaby and Evelyn can't wait to play with her cousins. Tamra is happy to help prepare for all this company. Michael bribes Tamra with anything she wants if she can get Jess to come downstairs, talk to them, and be pleasant. Tamra accomplishes this, she seems to bring out his softer side. Michael makes her favorite dessert and performs some much needed maintenance on her car for which Tamra is grateful.

Chapter 11

From his upstairs bedroom window, Jess watches his Mom and Tamra walk arm in arm across the lawn and wonders if he'll ever be happy again. He knows he loves Tamra, she's the most incredible, amazing and the most beautiful woman he's ever met-those lips! All that long, curly red hair!
Jess takes Tamra on a picnic to that special spot by the stream which readers will remember from past Byrnehouse-Davies & Hamilton novels. Tamra declines a bite of Jess' Vegemite sandwich, (he really DOES come from a land down under) preferring the cold chicken and potato salad option Emily thoughtfully packed for her. She tells him her life story, which the reader already heard in chapter 1.

Chapter 12

But there's more to add to Tamra's story. All those live-in boyfriends and stepfathers abused her, sexually. Her mother took her in for some counseling (see, her mother wasn't all bad) and after she joined the church, her new knowledge of the gospel helped heal those wounds, but they're still there and she felt Jess should know.
He's glad because he went through a rebellious period as a teen: stopped going to church, got into drugs and alcohol, experimented with body piercings and got to second base with several girls. Byron was the one who helped him come back. Then they went and served missions before coming home. That's why losing him in the car accident was so hard.
Next day, Tamra waves while Jess and his parents drive off into town for his next counseling session. The errands they run are revealed just as she's trying to decide what she'll wear to the first party tomorrow evening. Jess comes knocking on her bedroom door holding a dress bag containing a very pretty, modest, black formal dress with a beaded bodice and fishtail skirt of gathered material. There's matching high heeled shoes too. Tamra loves it. Jess confesses Emily helped him pick everything out.
Next day all the sisters, including Emma, arrive and all are very happy to meet Tamra. Jess takes her hand and subtle, knowing looks pass between all but Tamra.

Chapter 13

Jess knocks on Tamra's bedroom door to pick her up for their "date" to the party already in full swing downstairs. Jess looks like a fashion model in his tux. He declares Tamra looks good enough to eat but when they start down the stairs, Tamra is dismayed to see they're a wee bit overdressed and stops. She needs a minute. Jess is a little offended and goes downstairs without her. Tamra returns to her room intending to change but Emily comes knocking just a few minutes later to explain Jess' nonconventional party behavior. This was a quirky game he and Byron started doing. A way to defy authority and silly social rules by going to the extreme. It was Byron's idea to help steer Jess away from breaking the Word of Wisdom and it worked. Jess was just trying to carry on the "tradition." Now that Tamra understands, she goes downstairs to find Jess and apologize. Being tricked into dressing up was something her mother often did to her, to better impress a new boyfriend or husband making her feel like a worthless ornament but she understands that's not what Jess was trying to do. They end up having a great time at the party.
Afterwards, Jess leads her to the upstairs hall for some private dancing, he even brought the CD. The rest of the family discovers them, joining in to create a special family memory. (Swaying to Ambrosia's "Biggest Part of Me" from 1980? I'd run away screaming.)
Breakfast is ruined the next morning when the subject of how Jess and Tamra became a "thing" is brought up because it includes the suicide attempt which the sisters didn't know about. Everyone adjourns immediately to the other room to discuss this. Tamra tells her side, obeying that prompting to open the door and everyone gets weepy. Jess gets upset trying to explain how helpless he felt when the dark clouds gathered in his mind and he feared he'd never be happy again unless he took pills to end it. All his sisters repeat how much they love him and need him, how important he is to their family. They want to help him work through this. Jess' pride goes up again and he leaves the room in anger and tears.
Tamra follows him.

Chapter 14

Jess and Tamra agree a trip into town is needed, he has another counseling session today anyway, she'll meet him outside. Tamra is on the receiving end, again, of the family's eternal gratitude for saving Jess' life as his sisters stop her in the main hall, thanking her profusely, before Tamra finally gets out the door to meet Jess.
Tamra drives, (Jess has sworn he's never getting behind the wheel of a car again, and he hasn't. He biked or took the bus in Provo and has plenty of drivers here to chauffeur him.) they grab a burger before the appointment. All Jess' sisters attend this session with him and much progress is made as each sister repeats: nobody blames him and they all love him. Jess is lucky to have such a strong, supportive family who never patronizes him or makes him feel like a lazy, rebellious teen who tried to run away from home by attempting suicide. Nobody has said a word about Jess needing to find a job, move out if he's so unhappy at home, live in his own place and be independent, yet always available whenever his parents or siblings need him to do something for them. There's never been any pressure for him to date more or get married either.
Jess is beginning to realize just how lucky he is to have such a family. Having a "special friend" like Tamra in his life doesn't hurt either!
His sisters' visit comes to an end and they leave. Michael and Emily will follow in a month or so to see the rest of the older grandchildren and the sons-in-law who couldn't make it.
Tamra worries about Jess who becomes more withdrawn and begins avoiding her and his parents. He won't talk to anyone.

Chapter 15

The Boys' Home receptionist is leaving to have a baby. Michael offers Tamra the job who fits in perfectly and loves it. Michael and Emily leave for their extended trip. Jess and Tamra continue to "date" but Tamra can tell Jess is just playacting. Something is very wrong but will Jess talk about it? No.
Tamra finishes reading all of Alexa's journals and starts the ones her posterity kept, including LeNay Parkins story-Michael's mother.
Jess continues to act like Jekyll and Hyde: fun, sweet and gentle with her one minute, harsh, angry and negative the next. It's almost a relief to Tamra when Michael and Emily return.
Jess, on the other hand, becomes even more reclusive and bipolar. Michael, Emily and Tamra have no idea what to do about him except fast, pray and hope he won't succumb to any more self-destructive impulses. Michael and Emily break into "Didn't We Love Him" from Saturday's Warrior.

Chapter 16

Once again, readers of past Anita Stansfield novels will recognize the connection to the story of "Beauty and the Beast." It's Evelyn's favorite movie (the 1991 Disney version) which Tamra is watching with her when Jess enters the room to snark how he's the Beast before sitting down and joining them.
It's almost over when Michael and Emily return from a mysterious appointment in town. When Emily learns what they're watching, she produces great, great grandpa Jess' poetry. Jess is impressed. He had no idea he was named after a writer. Emily reads aloud his most famous poem (which readers will recognize) about Beauty (Alexa) saving her Beast (Jess) through true love. Jess gets up and leaves the room.
In church the next day, Michael is sustained as the new bishop in their ward. Tamra finds Michael's best selling hardback books of fiction in the family library, reads them and loves them. Michael just shrugs, modestly. The following Sunday, Tamra is given a calling by her new bishop. Jess is waiting outside the church office. He's being extended a calling too, with the young men. Their temple recommends were also renewed (this is back in the day when recommends had to be renewed every year, now it's good for two).
Tamra is beginning to wonder why Jess hasn't talked about temple marriage, or even bothered proposing. She gets it out of him, the same answer the men in this family have been repeating to their current girlfriends for years, "We're not worthy!"
Just to shake things up, who should the author decide to bring in but Jason. Tamra answers the door when he comes knocking. Jess is holed up in his room, studying (a few chapters ago, when he was feeling more "up" Tamra encouraged him to enroll in online college courses to finish his degree) and misses the whole tour Tamra gives her ex of the house, boys home and the grounds. They run into Michael who insists her guest stay for dinner. Knowing Jess will be there, Tamra tells Jason she's met someone here. Whatever rekindling he was hoping for ain't happening today. Jason understands.

Chapter 17

At dinner, Jess, previously warned by Emily when she knocked on his bedroom door to announce dinner, hides any discomfort about his competition by showing extra affection towards Tamra, implying they are an engaged couple. Jason congratulates them on their intended marriage and takes his leave.
Tamra is furious at Jess, calls him a hypocrite and storms out of the room. Later, she finds him crying alone in his bedroom, sits next to him, and he sobs in her arms. He just can't get over this depression consuming him and commit to her. He doesn't think he'll ever marry. Who would want him anyway?
One month later, nothing's changed. Tamra knows Jess is near suicidal again when she finds him lying on the floor in the upstairs hall, in the dark, one arm thrown over his eyes, listening to Air Supply's "Makin Love Out Of Nothing At All" (1983) and not moving, unresponsive. (Well, no wonder he's depressed! Someone put in Hamilton: An American Musical, stat!)
This is such a disturbing scene Tamra has to choke back a sob before turning and RUNNING from the room to her own where she cries and cries for hours. (And who could blame her? He was listening to Air Supply! This boy is beyond help.)
Tamra wonders if she should just leave but Jess beats her to it. Everyone wakes up the next morning to find Jess is gone. He left a note saying it was better if he left because Tamra belongs here more than he does. Michael tells her his father pulled a similar stunt on his mom. Before they got engaged, he ran away to join the Air Force but eventually found his way home again. Jess will do the same.

Chapter 18

Tamra, Michael and Emily begin another fast in Jess' behalf. They call every temple they can think of and put his name on the prayer rolls. It's like Jess died and they all miss him.
Tamra knows what she has to do.
Michael and Emily are sad to see her go but they understand. Tamra doesn't even pack all her belongings, she'll find her aunt in Sydney first and go from there.
But Aunt Rhea decided to take a lengthy vacation with some friends, a neighbor has been getting her mail and keeping an eye on the house. Tamra checks into a motel and spends a good week living at the Sydney temple where she is inspired to go back to Minnesota. Maybe reconciling with her mom is next step she needs to take in her life, since marriage just isn't happening for her.
Meanwhile, Jess has also been living in a motel room, but, unlike Tamra, he doesn't go anywhere. Lying in a pile of fast food wrappers, it occurs to him maybe he should call an old family friend, Sean O'Hara. (Yay! We get to see Sean again! Except our favorite older brother and psychiatrist is living an ocean away and with only one more chapter to wrap this story up, I'm afraid we only have time for a phone call.)
Sean and Jess talk for a long time. Sean tells Jess what everyone else has been repeating to him the entire book, God loves him. The gospel is true. His sins are forgiven. He doesn't have to be depressed anymore. Jesus did all that for him. Jess has an epiphany. Sean is right! He can be happy! And just like that Jess is cured.
He hangs up, packs and is driving back home before you can say Touched by an Angel.

Chapter 19

But Tamra's not waiting with open arms when he bursts through the front door of his home. Luckily, Jess has a pilot's license and knows how to fly the family plane. Michael is happy to hand over the keys. Go get her, Romeo!
Jess tracks down Aunt Rhea, who just returned from her long trip just in time to tell him where Tamra is and where to find her in Minnesota (Tamra left one last message for her aunt on the answering machine with all the info). Jess takes a cab back to the airport and is on the next plane to the States.
Ironically, Tamra is on this same flight. Jess sees her but she doesn't see him. Jess decides to wait a few hours, working up the nerve to reveal himself.
Sitting in the center row, just a few seats over from Tamra who has a window seat, Jess notices Tamra is awake from her nap but is crying silently with her face toward the window. Disguising his voice, he calls across the aisle, tricking Tamra into revealing her deepest feelings about Jess Hamilton, the man she loves and wishes were sitting next to her this very minute. If this isn't starting to sound like the end to a very bad rom-com movie, you need to get out more.
Well, congratulations Tamra banks, you just won the boyfriend jackpot! Tamra goes into shock when the strange man reveals himself but recovers quickly when Jess moves over to sit beside her and take her in his arms. He then proceeds to embarrass the heck out of her some more by making her stand up with him so he can kneel in the aisle and propose. The entire plane bursts into applause.
Since neither of these financially well off people have cell phones, Jess swipes his credit card to make the expensive call from their seat on the airplane. Good news like this just can't wait. It's a miracle and a happy

THE END

The Heir of Brownlie Manor

Book Series: Stand Alone Title

Publishing Date: 2016

Author: Anita Stansfield

Publisher: Covenant Communications, Inc.

Category: LDS Historical Romance
Point of View: Third Person Limited: Thomas and Ruth
Chapter Count: 15
Page Count: 288

Chapter 1      Seeking Purpose

Hampshire, England - 1808

Meet Thomas Quincy Fitzbatten, born with a silver spoon in his mouth. The only son and heir of the most wonderful, kind, loving parents any single child could ask for. They even treat their servants as equals, not an ounce of pride to be found in this aristocratic family. Thomas took a commission in the army and served for five years in the Napoleonic wars before a very minor chest wound got him discharged. Now he's home and all the staff and servants are very happy to see him.

His parents are off on holiday, not expected back for at least a month. Thomas didn't tell them he was coming. So much for his big surprise.

Restless, bored, pestering the servants to give him work (because that's just how this family is) while they shoo him away, one very prominent servant, Dawson, admits there IS a problem the young master could help him out with, it it's not too much trouble. His favorite niece just arrived this morning, very unexpectedly-unwed, pregnant, destitute. No one else in the household knows she's here. Yet. If the staff starts to talk, it could ruin Thomas and his family's squeaky clean reputation. Thomas rubs his hands in glee. Project! Aiding this poor young woman would be his genuine pleasure.

Thomas sends for a carriage to take the young woman into Hampshire where further arrangements will be made. He decides to ride along, making up an excuse about visiting the pub tonight which the staff knows he enjoys doing. This will assure any gossip is nipped in the bud and Uncle Dawson's secret will be safe.

The nineteen or twenty year old girl is named Ruth Dawson. In the dim light of the carriage, her melodic voice and upper class accent make it obvious she is no Tess of the D'Urbervilles. She just has a weakness for tall, dark handsome men, men who look eerily like HIM. She thought the jerk loved her and had honorable intentions. The fault is entirely hers and Ruth is ready to accept responsibility for her actions that led to the unfortunate situation she now finds herself in. Her dark eyes fill with tears as she mourns for this unborn child who deserves both a mother and father yet to give it away will surely break her heart. Whatever she ends up doing, the baby's needs come first. 

Thomas can't help but be impressed.

Chapter 2      Arranged and Convenient 

At the Inn, Ruth is checked into a comfortable room and Thomas has food sent up, joining her while she eats. To the surprise of both, conversation is amiable as they discover they enjoy each other's company. Ruth finds Thomas easy to talk to as she reveals more details about how she came to be with child. She was working in service in a fine house, got acquainted with one of the male workers. Too late, she found he lacked commitment before he quit his job and  left-rumors about having another woman. Again, Ruth despairs of being able to keep her baby. Thomas promises to do what he can to help her. He leaves and Ruth sleeps well for the first time in weeks.

Back at the Manor, Thomas wakes Uncle Dawson to inform him of his intentions to MARRY this good niece of his. His mind is made up and why not? He's lonely. Brownlie needs an heir. It's about time he settled down anyway. 

Uncle is astonished at such a rash decision that will forever change his life. Seeing Thomas is determined, being familiar with his character, having known him all his life and the similar character of his niece, gives his blessing. They might make a good match, even if Thomas is marrying way WAY down.

Next morning, they return to the Inn to spring the news on Ruth. At first she is adamant, declaring Thomas mad. Why would he ever choose a woman taken in sin, a woman like herself, to marry? Thomas declares nobody is condemning her, as far as he's concerned from this time forth, she is a pure and virtuous woman. The child will be born within the bonds of matrimony; mom and baby will never want for anything. Uncle vouches for Thomas. He is a good and honorable man. What else can Ruth do but accept? 

Chapter 3      The Cottage

They are married by the Vicar in town that very day. Thomas is quite the romantic, presenting Ruth with a lovely bouquet of flowers to hold during the ceremony. He tucks one into her brown hair, which she always wears in a large plaited coil on the back of her head, following the fashion of the day.

Thomas has decided to take her to his family's cottage by the sea. The Manor staff back in Hampshire have already been told another fabricated story-Thomas has gone to fetch his wife, he got married three years ago while on leave. He didn't want to say anything until he could tell his parents personally. Now when he brings her back, no one will be surprised by her pregnancy.
The cottage is kept by a young newlywed couple, Mr. and Mrs. Barclay, already expecting their first child. The mother-in-law also lives here. Her health is not good. She will most likely follow her beloved husband, leaving her son to carry on the family tradition of caring for the Fitzbatten cottage.

Chapter 4       Together

Ruth and Thomas spend the next several days getting to know each other better. Because the family hasn't used the cottage in years, Ruth and Thomas roll up their sleeves and join in the work, happy to give the young wife a break as she is great with child. Everyone is constantly thanking and praising each other. Ruth and Thomas share the bed in their room to avoid talk but agree the time is not right for them to consummate the relationship. While Thomas admits he looks forward to this part of being married, he'll not force himself on her. Ruth is grateful. Thomas is constantly serving her, offering her food from the kitchen and holding her whenever she gets weepy with pregnancy hormones. He takes her into the village to buy her all new things. They attend church and take walks in the rain.

Thomas' favorite part of his new married life is watching, discreetly from the bed while he pretends to read, his lovely wife take down her hair every evening to brush and rebraid it. Ruth is oblivious to this, too caught up living this fantastic dream. Loving your choice was never so easy.

Chapter 5      The Wrong Order

Mother-in-law passes away. Ruth takes it hard and Thomas holds her while she cries. Thomas makes coffee for everyone, because he's the perfect man. All sit around and share their feelings.

Then, the new wife goes into labor. Ruth helps her deliver the baby. It's a boy!

Ruth is one of six children, all boys and she's the only girl. Some are older, some younger. Some are married, some still living at home working the farm or in the local mines. Their father was killed years ago in a mining accident. While he was cold, aloof and not very affectionate, Ruth always knew he loved them. Her mother was also cold and aloof. When she heard about Ruth's misfortune, she didn't hesitate kicking her daughter out of her house for doing it all in the wrong order. 

Thomas agrees. Mom was absolutely right, they did do everything in the wrong order such as meeting and marrying while skipping the dating and courting. He will rectify that right now. From this moment on, he's going to start courting her. Ruth can't believe how blessed she is. For about the 50th time.

Chapter 6     Courting

For their first official "date" Thomas takes her horseback riding. Ruth exclaims over the spectacular beauty of the Fitzbatten land. Thomas tells her wait till she sees the family estate back home. They kiss and declare themselves madly in love with each other.

Back at the cottage, a letter has arrived. Thomas' parents are back. Learning their son took a wife and being anxious to see him anyway after five years absence, they are already on the road and on their way here for a spontaneous visit. Sincerely, Lord and Lady Arrington. Ruth looks at Thomas in puzzlement. Arrington? The family title, he explains.

Chapter 7      On Butterfly Wings

In an effort to make her story more interesting, the author keeps inserting this weak motif of a lucky butterfly with blue wings into her narrative. The gardeners back at Brownlie manor pointed it out to Thomas (in Chapter 1 before he met Ruth) while he was helping them weed. Now, Ruth, also weeding outside the cottage, has found one. She too believes it's a sign of good fortune coming. Thomas takes her in his arms, declaring he's already the richest man alive-because he has her. Ruth swoons and they kiss.

Mr. and Mrs. Fitzbatten arrive. All six adults spend many pages praising each other and sharing their joy over the new baby and new marriages. Thomas and Ruth have a story all ready regarding how and where they met and fell in love. It comes as no surprise to the parents when they announce they're expecting. 

Later, both young adults feel guilty for lying. They agree to come clean and will confess tomorrow.

Chapter 8       Secrets

That night, cuddling in bed together, Ruth admits she has something to tell him. Remember that night when they first met? 
How could Thomas forget it? 
Remember how apprehensive she was at first sight of him? Well, it was because the jerk who knocked her up was not merely similar in appearance to Thomas but, looked EXACTLY like him! It was the most ironic thing she's ever experienced in her life. Thomas just shrugs it off. We all have a doppelgänger out there somewhere. He then holds and comforts her for two hours. Sobbing and groaning, Thomas coaxes the story out of Ruth that she did NOT lie with the father of her child willingly. He again assures her none of this was her fault. He still loves her and everything is going to be all right from now on.

Thomas has a secret too, but not nearly as dramatic as Ruth's. He knew a man in the (don't ask, don't tell) army who was "a little different" and all the men bullied him about it. All the way to suicide. Thomas still has nightmares about finding the dead body of his friend.

Chapter 9     Return to Brownlie Manor

They sit Thomas' parents down and confess. They take it well. In fact they aren't surprised as they know their son well enough to know when he's lying, he's never been very good at it (this is important later when everyone conveniently forgets this). So, the fact Ruth was taken advantage of and their son stepped in to save her makes them even more proud of their only son. The baby will inherit and never be treated any differently from the other future grandchildren which they fully expect Thomas and Ruth to get busy making!

Ruth and Thomas return to Brownlie after the christening of their friends' new baby. The entire staff welcomes them home and are especially excited to meet their new mistress who is every bit as gracious and kind as the family she married into. Nobody can find fault with anything. The large home is always in perfect order, exquisite meals served everyday, the grounds always looking their best and the master bedroom awaits. Ruth feels she is truly living a fairy tale.

Chapter 10      The Right Thing

Pampered life is bliss for the happy couple. Since Ruth used to work in service herself, she often jumps in to help with daily chores, just like Thomas' mother would often do. All the maids and housekeepers think the world of Ruth for continuing this household custom and find nothing awkward about it at all. They absolutely adore Ruth because she truly understands their lives. (Has the author never watched even a single episode of Downton Abbey?)

Thomas' parents return from their extended stay at the cottage and everyone can't stop talking about how wonderful life is and how blessed they all are.

Amidst all this sunshine and happiness, Ruth wishes her mother would write her back, just once. She's been writing her family faithfully every week since she got married but nobody on her side of the family seems to care. Thomas declares they should take a trip and visit them all. Find out for themselves the reason for this silent treatment. 

Ruth's mother isn't exactly overjoyed to see them at her door, but she doesn't slam it in their faces either. Interesting to note, after Thomas slips her some money, she softens up considerably! They visit Ruth's married brothers who welcome her warmly. When Ruth's mother observes this, she becomes more open and affectionate. They all attend church. Everyone is happy for their sister who obviously married well.

Chapter 11       Lured Away

Ruth's baby is born. It's a girl! They name her Joy, despite Christmas still being about two months away. The christening takes place in the spring and all the subjects of the realm area are invited to attend where a good time is had by all.

Then, one day, a disturbing message arrives in the post. Thomas' very dear friend with whom he served in the war, Teddy, claims to be in trouble but can't explain in words. He begs Thomas to meet him in London. 

Thomas leaves immediately where the Inn he stays at mysteriously catches fire and he is nearly run over in the street by a carriage. While lying in bed awake one night, stewing over why, after all his inquires and searching, he can't find any trace of his friend, a dark form enters his room, points a pistol and tries to assassinate him in his bed. Thomas rolls away just in time.

The innkeeper appears at the door, demanding to know what's going on. Thomas knows he has to leave. This was all a set-up. He's riding his horse on a dark, deserted road, miles outside the city when he realizes he's being followed. Someone takes aim, fires, and for Thomas the world goes dark.

Chapter 12      The Imposter (or, Thanks for the spoiler, Anita!)

Could it be any more obvious who is behind all this? We are back at the manor the next morning and Ruth has just been informed her husband is home. Ecstatic, she enters the study to greet him only to stop dead in her tracks. The man going through the papers in the desk might look, act and even sound like Thomas, but, in all the months they've been married, HER Thomas never called her "sweetheart" with an evil look in his eye. His open shirt reveals no chest wound. This man is not Thomas and it doesn't take Ruth long to place him as he also recognized her when she entered the room. 

This man's name is Lucius Malfoy who launches into a monologue about how he discovered the remarkable resemblance he bore to a very wealthy man who'd served in the army. He paid a couple of men to take care of him, intending to take his place. He already fooled Thomas' parents, but he had no idea about Ruth who will play along or ELSE! Ruth turns and flees the room to sob in solitude. She is trapped. 

The baby is fine. Lucius hasn't put two and two together yet. Dinner is normal and Ruth must act like everything is perfectly normal as well or the people she loves will get hurt. Like the reader, Ruth can't believe nobody else in this house has figured out something's wrong with Thomas. Her father-in-law is happily making arrangements to have the entire financial management of the estate transferred to Thomas. Mother-in-law has been troubled by worsening health and bad dreams every night about the day she gave birth to Thomas. She mostly keeps to her room and so does Ruth. Anything to avoid this monster who has single-handedly taken over the manor. Even her Uncle, who serves as butler, along with the other servants, suspect nothing.  

Thomas comes to. (No one put him in an iron mask) A moody Gamekeeper and his equally moody wife found him dying on the side of the road and took him in. Now that Thomas is feeling better, he's anxious to get home and leaves without bothering to learn the names of his benefactors.

When he reaches Fitzbatten land, he decides to wait until dark to sneak into the house. He finds Ruth first and boy is she glad to see him!

Chapter 13      The Other Mother

Thomas and Ruth fall into each other's arms before catching each other up on everything that's happened. They repeat to each other everything the reader already knows (You're supposed to SHOW not tell, Anita! Creative Writing 101, rule #1.)
Ruth cannot fathom how these two identical men are not related. Lucius has to be Thomas's identical twin brother, there's no other explanation. Thomas is adamant, his parents did NOT lie to them. He has and always will be an only child. No way a woman could birth twins and not know.
Actually she could, Ruth corrects him. She launches into an account of how she was visiting his mother in her room where she lay sick and got her talking about the day Thomas was born. His mother claims she was given drugs or herbs for her labor pains which knocked her out until the following day when she woke up holding a tiny baby boy. It was common for fathers to be kept away from all the drama, so Thomas' father would've had no idea. Ruth suspects the doctor and his female assistant must have been paid off to kidnap the second baby and sell it to the highest bidder.
In order to verify the story, they need to question the woman who received the child and Ruth just happens to know where she lives because from what Lucius told her about his own childhood while they were dating, it all makes sense. He always knew he was adopted. His father treated him very badly while his mother was too timid to interfere. As a result, Lucius grew up to be a misogynist with no respect for anyone, entitled to all the handouts he felt the world owed him. Thomas leaves immediately to visit this "other mother."
Her name is Abigail. That low-life, good for nothing husband died years ago and she's GLAD. She repeats everything Ruth already told us, adding her adopted son broke her heart, growing up to be such a menace to society. Thomas insists she come with him, permanently, to Brownlie manor where she is welcome to stay for always. Abigail accepts. She will pack tonight and Thomas will return in the morning to fetch her.
But the assassin from London is waiting in the small shack, holding Abigail hostage when Thomas enters. Lucky for Thomas he had the foresight to bring along a few local policemen for backup, just in case. They shoot the man, Albert, an old war buddy whom Thomas once considered to be a good and trusted friend. Not anymore! Before he died, Albert confessed he was in league with Lucius to track down Thomas and kill him for his wealth. Too bad he didn't succeed.
Abigail is now very anxious to leave this place, permanently. Thomas helps her load up and they leave.

Chapter 14      Mirror Image

Thomas is very thorough. He not only brought two policemen, along with Abigail, to back himself up and prove his identity, he has legal papers to help resolve this confusing issue of inheritance between two birthright sons. After Thomas sneaks into Dawson's office, alone, to reveal the entire scheme, listing several examples proving he's the REAL Thomas, Dawson believes him.
Uncle Dawson fetches Thomas' father, who can hardly believe he has TWO sons and was tricked all these years. He agrees to help Thomas in his foolproof plan. He will join the family for dinner, acting as if nothing  is wrong. He also takes Ruth aside and tells her what just happened. (it takes considerable effort for her to hold in her feelings) Later, after they've retired to the parlor for coffee and drinks, Thomas will burst in with his party to apprehend this heartless fiend.
It's pretty obvious this plan to reveal the impostor and see justice done will be pulled off with no complications.
It works. Lucius stares in disbelief as Thomas strips away his identity, reclaiming it for himself in the presence of all these witnesses. Lucius has no choice, really, but to give himself up and go with these officers. Thomas shows there's no hard feelings as he produces the papers stating half of Brownlie estate is now his. If he won't give up this ridiculous charade, Thomas won't be dividing his inheritance equally with his long lost twin brother! All Lucius has to do is go peacefully with these nice officers, to the bank, and he can claim all the money before leaving England, never to return.
But Lucius won't give up that easily. He draws a pistol and points it at Thomas. Ruth screams but an officer fires first and Lucius falls, dead before he hits the floor.
It's all over.

Chapter 15     Truth

Thomas' mom knew, all this time, deep down in her heart, that she always had two sons. She is in shock and grief for the lost son she never got to know, but she'll get over it.
Ruth is relieved Lucius never once questioned Joy's paternity which means she is truly their daughter now, with true blue Fitzbatten blood. No one will ever need to know.
Abigail has already been accepted into the family without any trouble. A funeral service will be held for Lucius and everyone will do their best to mourn his passing like the good Christians they are, but secretly they are all celebrating!

Epilogue
It's a family picnic and the gang's all here, including Mr. and Mrs. Barclay from the cottage who brought their young son,Warren, who squeals in laughter with Joy, his new favorite playmate. Thomas chases his eighteen month old namesake, Thomas III. Abigail and Thomas' mother, Ruth and Mrs. Barclay, have all become the best and very dearest of friends and...look! A blue-winged butterfly flits by, signaling this must be

THE END